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I haven't disappeared... but as part of my Lentin journey, I've decided to stop using AIM (until after Easter, if not longer). I feel as though it will help me connect with individuals who are important to me on a more personal level (ie. through the phone conversations or face-to-face interactions). I'm also working on reaching out to people that I don't normally reach out to - the people I don't have classes with, or see on a daily basis. So far, this is proving to be quite difficult, as my classes have taken over, and time to breathe is barely existent.
Once again I've decided to fall for someone who isn't ready/able to commit himself to a relationship. It's proven to be very taxing. I enjoy his company, his emails, his phone calls, but I'm not sure how much longer I'll be able to do this "just friends thing." Eventually I'm going to start to feel somewhat rejected and lonely. I know it's not his fault, and I know I'm probably just being that over-emotional, "let's read into everything he says and does" type, but I just wish something so simple didn't have to be so complicated. Lately I've been feeling like I'm more of a burden in his life than anything else. I truly hope this is not the case. I'm thinking it's not, since he's such a sweet guy, but one can only hope...
I'm leaving for New Orleans in a week and 2 days. I'll be traveling with four friends from the Newman Club. We'll be down there for 5 days, to help with the Katrina Relief. Part of me is extremely frightened. I worry that I won't be able to help with much. Another part of me is excited to be helping so many people, and to have an experience of a lifetime. I just can't believe it's almost here.
I suppose I just have to keep the mindset that everything happens for a reason. I wish I knew why things have to happen the way they do, but I suppose trusting in God that things are happeneing the way they should is all I can do.
Once again I've decided to fall for someone who isn't ready/able to commit himself to a relationship. It's proven to be very taxing. I enjoy his company, his emails, his phone calls, but I'm not sure how much longer I'll be able to do this "just friends thing." Eventually I'm going to start to feel somewhat rejected and lonely. I know it's not his fault, and I know I'm probably just being that over-emotional, "let's read into everything he says and does" type, but I just wish something so simple didn't have to be so complicated. Lately I've been feeling like I'm more of a burden in his life than anything else. I truly hope this is not the case. I'm thinking it's not, since he's such a sweet guy, but one can only hope...
I'm leaving for New Orleans in a week and 2 days. I'll be traveling with four friends from the Newman Club. We'll be down there for 5 days, to help with the Katrina Relief. Part of me is extremely frightened. I worry that I won't be able to help with much. Another part of me is excited to be helping so many people, and to have an experience of a lifetime. I just can't believe it's almost here.
I suppose I just have to keep the mindset that everything happens for a reason. I wish I knew why things have to happen the way they do, but I suppose trusting in God that things are happeneing the way they should is all I can do.