it's over
So, Pat and I basically broke up. I actually broke up with him. I don't know what it was that made me realize that I just didn't like him anymore, but it hit me really quickly. The relationship was rocky from the start. I don't think I was ever treated right... nothing I ever did for him was appreciated. It just kept on getting worse and oworse, without me realizing it. And then just last week it hit me like a ton of bricks. It sucks that it had to be two days before our one year anniversary, but I had to end it... I just did.
Needless to say, I've been really low lately. Crying a lot... not because I miss Patrick, but because he hasn't been making it easy on me. The end has basically summed up our whole relationship. I'm the bad person, in his eyes... this is all my fault... I'm such a jerk. Good thing I have some self-esteem left, otherwise this situation would be ten times worse. I tried too hard to make the relationship work, which just caused me to get sucked in deeper and deeper. He made me believe that I was the bad one. Well you know what, I'm not. I tried so hard to be sooo good to him, and nothing was ever good enough. I was always on the bottom of his list of priorities, and that's not where a girlfriend should be.
Fortunately for me, I have some amazing friends here to comfort me. All of the presents, free food (chocolate, ice cream, and cookies), hugs, and words of encouragement have been so helpful. Honestly, without my friends, I think I'd still be with him. I don't know what I'd be like right now if I didn't have such a huge support group. So, thanks to everyone. Just being there for me (even if you had no clue what was going on) has helped me be strong throughout the entire situation.
I love you all.
Needless to say, I've been really low lately. Crying a lot... not because I miss Patrick, but because he hasn't been making it easy on me. The end has basically summed up our whole relationship. I'm the bad person, in his eyes... this is all my fault... I'm such a jerk. Good thing I have some self-esteem left, otherwise this situation would be ten times worse. I tried too hard to make the relationship work, which just caused me to get sucked in deeper and deeper. He made me believe that I was the bad one. Well you know what, I'm not. I tried so hard to be sooo good to him, and nothing was ever good enough. I was always on the bottom of his list of priorities, and that's not where a girlfriend should be.
Fortunately for me, I have some amazing friends here to comfort me. All of the presents, free food (chocolate, ice cream, and cookies), hugs, and words of encouragement have been so helpful. Honestly, without my friends, I think I'd still be with him. I don't know what I'd be like right now if I didn't have such a huge support group. So, thanks to everyone. Just being there for me (even if you had no clue what was going on) has helped me be strong throughout the entire situation.
I love you all.