Almost a Year...
A lot has happened in the time that I haven't posted. I can't even remember the last things that I posted... Anyway in January I went to a hospital to get a psych eval done on me, it took me six people to leave the hospital because they were concerned that I would hurt myself again. I told them that I just did it to myself so I could see blood, blood relieves me... I don't knnow why, but it really does. So that was my fisrt little session as a cutter. It continued until like July when I saw another psychologist, he said that it was pretty much just superficial cuts and that I needed to find a better coping mechanism... Bleh, psychologist are more fucked up than most people out there, which is why they picked the job that they did. They know other people's problems because they have their own or have seen soemone near them with the same thing.
I went to a couple other countires over seas. To those that've talked to me since I've gotten back you've know that I tried absynthe over there and thought it was compeltely awesome. However I didn't get a pee test within the allotted time so they didn't catch it. People ahve asked me if I hallucinated or not and I always say that I didn't until the next day... Because that night I couldn't see anything at all. For those of you who don't know my ancestry it's an Irish Scotsman, meaning that alcoholism is in my bloodline and I can drink like a beast even if I haven't done it for a while. For instance I had a whiskey sour, a tequila sunrise, and a half & half rum and coke last night, the buzz only lasted for like two hours and then it was all gone... *shrug* Speaking of which I have to find out when my friend Ben is having his party so I can get invited... I remember he said something about going on leave next week *shrug* He probably forgot about me... I think I made him uncomfortable.
There's a little story behind us. We left Maine together on the same plane to go to Bootcamp for the Navy, oddly enough there we two other guys that flew out as well. When we got there we all got into the same division adn everything, went to bootcamp all together. We all graduated, one went to an A school in a different state, the other guy I didn't keep track of, and my friend Ben was in a barracks right beside mine in a different A school. Well when I got back from cruise I wasn't expecting anyone to be waiting for me on the peir... Well, Ben was actually waiting for me ebcause they pulled in from their cruise a week before us, so it took me like an hour and a half to find him and it was awesome, we hadn't seen each other for two years. So we exchanged numbers and that shtuffies and he invited me to a party.
Well that night I found out an important thing, Ouzo (a domestic Greek liquer that tastes like black licorice and is 70% alcohol) and Irish Carbombs don't mix very well at all. Plus when I get tipsy and more drunk I open up more and all that. Well, I wasn't telling anyone that I was gay and completely flaunting it or anything, but I was the most drunk person there and I had to hold onto him for stability... I don't really thing he liked it all that much, but he did invite me over again for some other time... I also found out that the Porcelain Goddess is a very great soother when it comes to a drunken night...
Other news... I still in the middle of trying to get out, not really trying to get out of the Navy. I keep on saying things but I don't ant to put them all into action because people don't believe me and blah crappity all that other stupid fuckshit. I started to see a counselor again since I got abck and she's not helping me at all. The only thing that she really said was that I should go to some stress management courses and that goodness. I signed up and they're for next month. She asked how I handled stress at home and I told her that I didn't have any at all there. The stresses that I have are all work related and about these stupid people that like to fuck me over and over again without and remorse at all. I think it would also be nice to get some disability out of this place because they don't believe that my body is giving out on me at all.
I'm in a relationship now, it's really awesome. We've been going out for almost two months now and I'm going to be going with him to Cali to meet his parents and all that shtuffies. That meaning that I can't bring any of my goth clothes over and that I definitely need to find sone instant snow so I can throw it at people who've ultimately never seen it before. Ooh, great story. Last week we came outside and there was a frosting on the windshield... Well ol' boy over here takes the sleve of his shirt and tries to get it off the car by just rubbing it :-p Me, being the person from Maine and used to that type of thing took out the ice scrapper and did it the right way, smiling the whole time :-P
So yea, he's an ex-cheerleader/colorguard person. Really fun to be around, dances a lot, completely shameless when it comes to making out and having sex infront of people (the people we've scarred :-p)... Hrm, what else... He's trying to get me into Mexican dances like tha Salsa and like that... So hawt. We grew up in similar conditions but we ultimately made completely different life choices... Pretty much when we were telling other people about ourselves we said that we're completely the same, except I'm more of an asshole and tell people that they should fuck off :-p Everyone that sees us also says that he's the girl int he relationship :-p However, my roommate's friends don't seem to think that I can decorate a room, but I can, however, pick out a great outfit :-p
That's pretty much it for this little itty bitty update. I haven't done one in so long. Oh yea, I also have the best phone short of a smart phone from Verizon, it's got a 3.2 megapixel camera, I can hook it up to my computer and upload songs, I can hook it up to the TV and have fun with it that way, or just regular search the web and check my E-mail or get directions on mapquest... I also have the best laptop that I could find at Circuit City and bought it. So that means that I've currently been playing Oblivion when I'm not cuddling with my boyfriend. Also check my Photobucket for new pictures in the LJ album for the cruise pictures and there's soon to be pictures of Oblivion on there (note: it's a dark game so you might have to adjust brightness on your screen). Oh yea, and since I haven't done it in so long... Ta Ta For Now :-D
I went to a couple other countires over seas. To those that've talked to me since I've gotten back you've know that I tried absynthe over there and thought it was compeltely awesome. However I didn't get a pee test within the allotted time so they didn't catch it. People ahve asked me if I hallucinated or not and I always say that I didn't until the next day... Because that night I couldn't see anything at all. For those of you who don't know my ancestry it's an Irish Scotsman, meaning that alcoholism is in my bloodline and I can drink like a beast even if I haven't done it for a while. For instance I had a whiskey sour, a tequila sunrise, and a half & half rum and coke last night, the buzz only lasted for like two hours and then it was all gone... *shrug* Speaking of which I have to find out when my friend Ben is having his party so I can get invited... I remember he said something about going on leave next week *shrug* He probably forgot about me... I think I made him uncomfortable.
There's a little story behind us. We left Maine together on the same plane to go to Bootcamp for the Navy, oddly enough there we two other guys that flew out as well. When we got there we all got into the same division adn everything, went to bootcamp all together. We all graduated, one went to an A school in a different state, the other guy I didn't keep track of, and my friend Ben was in a barracks right beside mine in a different A school. Well when I got back from cruise I wasn't expecting anyone to be waiting for me on the peir... Well, Ben was actually waiting for me ebcause they pulled in from their cruise a week before us, so it took me like an hour and a half to find him and it was awesome, we hadn't seen each other for two years. So we exchanged numbers and that shtuffies and he invited me to a party.
Well that night I found out an important thing, Ouzo (a domestic Greek liquer that tastes like black licorice and is 70% alcohol) and Irish Carbombs don't mix very well at all. Plus when I get tipsy and more drunk I open up more and all that. Well, I wasn't telling anyone that I was gay and completely flaunting it or anything, but I was the most drunk person there and I had to hold onto him for stability... I don't really thing he liked it all that much, but he did invite me over again for some other time... I also found out that the Porcelain Goddess is a very great soother when it comes to a drunken night...
Other news... I still in the middle of trying to get out, not really trying to get out of the Navy. I keep on saying things but I don't ant to put them all into action because people don't believe me and blah crappity all that other stupid fuckshit. I started to see a counselor again since I got abck and she's not helping me at all. The only thing that she really said was that I should go to some stress management courses and that goodness. I signed up and they're for next month. She asked how I handled stress at home and I told her that I didn't have any at all there. The stresses that I have are all work related and about these stupid people that like to fuck me over and over again without and remorse at all. I think it would also be nice to get some disability out of this place because they don't believe that my body is giving out on me at all.
I'm in a relationship now, it's really awesome. We've been going out for almost two months now and I'm going to be going with him to Cali to meet his parents and all that shtuffies. That meaning that I can't bring any of my goth clothes over and that I definitely need to find sone instant snow so I can throw it at people who've ultimately never seen it before. Ooh, great story. Last week we came outside and there was a frosting on the windshield... Well ol' boy over here takes the sleve of his shirt and tries to get it off the car by just rubbing it :-p Me, being the person from Maine and used to that type of thing took out the ice scrapper and did it the right way, smiling the whole time :-P
So yea, he's an ex-cheerleader/colorguard person. Really fun to be around, dances a lot, completely shameless when it comes to making out and having sex infront of people (the people we've scarred :-p)... Hrm, what else... He's trying to get me into Mexican dances like tha Salsa and like that... So hawt. We grew up in similar conditions but we ultimately made completely different life choices... Pretty much when we were telling other people about ourselves we said that we're completely the same, except I'm more of an asshole and tell people that they should fuck off :-p Everyone that sees us also says that he's the girl int he relationship :-p However, my roommate's friends don't seem to think that I can decorate a room, but I can, however, pick out a great outfit :-p
That's pretty much it for this little itty bitty update. I haven't done one in so long. Oh yea, I also have the best phone short of a smart phone from Verizon, it's got a 3.2 megapixel camera, I can hook it up to my computer and upload songs, I can hook it up to the TV and have fun with it that way, or just regular search the web and check my E-mail or get directions on mapquest... I also have the best laptop that I could find at Circuit City and bought it. So that means that I've currently been playing Oblivion when I'm not cuddling with my boyfriend. Also check my Photobucket for new pictures in the LJ album for the cruise pictures and there's soon to be pictures of Oblivion on there (note: it's a dark game so you might have to adjust brightness on your screen). Oh yea, and since I haven't done it in so long... Ta Ta For Now :-D