love love lovely
Here I am without one damn care about it all anymore. the words don't push the buttons anymore atleast not hers. I dunno why not, they used to before those words used to eat away at me. But now nothing, i dunno why. I really wish i could explain, but i just can't so i will go on to other matters. I think I am really starting to like ashleigh, alot. At first I could tell a few friends were spectical, I think it appeared like some attempt to recieve attention in any form that i could get. But honestly she makes me smile, and happy to wake up. She sent me this messege on myspace telling me she innocently kissed a friend that she hadn't seen in like 7 years. And that bothered me, I didn't get upset or angery towards her but it just bothered me all day. I kept thinking about, like I couldn't get it out of my head. That is when i relised how much I have begun to care about her. Hmm.. I don't want to jinx anything though, cause everytime I say those words. Something bad happens and I loose what ever it is that i am beining to cherish. So i will just keep my mouth and mind closed off so i can't over anylze anything and ruin everything. YAY SHE JUST CALLED
must go
hearts
tara
must go
hearts
tara