Sadness is sad?

[fenrislupa]

I r eally wonder if I should go get help. I'm depressed and I can't even tell you why. It came to me after relaxing and watching a show and all. I showered and and I just felt this doom drown me. I felt so sad and lonely. Also it's fit more of the clinical signs of depression than it did before. I sleep and it takes me a bit of time and i tend to

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[fenrislupa]

I'm always exhausted though. One nurse was talking about getting B12 shots but most insurances don't accept it as treatment. So she was talking about going to mexico and getting it done.. Heh. But I'm not spending a huge amount of money to get a passport and get that done every month. Anyways overtime work always lessened the depression, though you are right it won't make it go away. It's just pushing it to the side. But not having any other option, I'm picking one to distract me. Unfortunately there hasn't been over time anyway.
Also when I'm depressed I don't want to do anything and some things that might help, I can't afford * like visiting you or the ocean * ;p
I clean up the house anyways T___T I don't like walking in my neighborhood;p I don't have any cable, can't afford it. So don't worry about tv XD
I was also thinking that my depression could be linked to my menstrual cycle so I think I might be exploring that. I do get crazy tired near my period and during. I sleep extremely heavy and sometimes driving is a hazard during that time.
I don't want to get professional meds or help because I had to take a psych test to get into my current job. Fortunately I don't think they'd see that I seperate my feelings from home and work. At work I can very much function o.o
I miss you Nicole. Just to let you know. Every day I am thankful that you are alive somewhere out there.