WORK IN PROGRESS!!
1) Tell us about where you live: I live at my mom's
2) If you could change one thing about your home, what would it be? I'd make it an apartment somewhere that isn't my mom's house
3) Do you do laundry on a regular schedule? technically, although it's not a temporal schedule
4) Describe the place that you sleep: its a bed! I finally have a bed, after almost 2 years sleeping on a mattress on the floor, I have a bed!!
5) This morning: was it easy or difficult to start the day? difficult
Top Ten: (most can be looked up at
A Z Lyrics or in prior Top Tens)
- Evanescence - Call Me When You're Sober: Egad, I love this song and video!! Her eyes... Intoxicating...
- Drowning Pool - Step Up: The perfect song for when you're REALLY pissed off.
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- Disturbed / Genesis - Land Of Confusion: Genesis described the Regan-Era world perfectly, and Disturbed reminded us just how much things have changed, only to remain the same.
- Blue October - Hate Me: I just like it. It doesn't really apply to me, I just like it.
- Three Days Grace - Animal I Have Become: Particularly applicable after the shitstorm that fell upon me today.
- Gnarls Barkley - Crazy: It's got a real smooth groove.
- Evanescence - Solitude: Still living it, word for word (well, provided you flip-flop all gender references, Amy's talking to a guy, I'm talking to a girl).
That's all I really listened to this week.
So, as best I can tell, having scoured WebMD and Medline for the past few hours, I have Hand, Foot, and Mouth disease, a viral infection that generally lasts 5-7 days. HFM is known by a red rash on the palms of the hands and the soles of the feet in addition to the throat and tonsils. Oh, and one other thing; symptoms only manifest in pediatric cases. That's why I have a red rash on my palms, soles, and feel like I have tonsilitis and a tongue riddled with canker sores. Further digging found a entry where "only" was replaced with "typically". I love being an extreme outlier... Did I mention the mini-blister-like vesicles are extremely painful, and that they sting, burn, and itch? and that they're everywhere on my hands and the balls of my feet and pads of my toes. Yeah, so basically, touching anything, walking, or hell, moving my hands/fingers or feet/toes is excrutiatingly painful, and that anything I put in my mouth burns (moreso than usual in the case of the General Tso's I had on day one). Fortunately, I only have another 2-4 days left to suffer (which means it'll prolly be more like 4-6 days).
That is all. Nothing to see here, move along...
So as most of you know, being down on my luck I had to move back to my mom's and I've been rebuilding my engine in her backyard. I talked to the code enforcement officer for our neighborhood, and told him what all I was doing and he was cool with it, cool enough that after being cool with it for a good long while, he decided to charge my mom (as the property owner) with a misdemeanor for "improper storage of a vehicle". Fucktard. Asshat. *grumble*
On top of that, I got a letter today that one of my (private) studant loan providers is thinking of taking me to court. I make less than $50/month, how much do they think they can get? Anybody know any good bankrupcy attorneys? Maybe I can beat them to the punch...
I see two paths before me... One leads down a self-destructive path of depression, anguish, and dispair, the other leads down a fantastical, even postal, path of bloodshed, rage, and spent shell casings. Fortunate for all, I'm stagnant, which in and of itself is a problem, and part of what got me here in the first place.
Grown-Up's Meme:
Here are some questions for the people who are a little more mature...
1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
petrol, considering I haven't paid much else in several years.
2. What's the best place to eat a romantic dinner?
Home
3. Last time you puked from drinking?
Nevah!! Buahaha!!!
4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar?
See #3
5. Name of your first grade teacher?
Miss Lieberman
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
Holding up a series of banks and getting away with it
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
an aerospace engineer
8. How many colleges did you attend?
1
9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now?
I wanted to wear a black shirt, and the studio is usually cold, so I grabbed a long-sleeve T
10. GAS PRICES First thought?
Fuck Mid-Eastern freedom, fucking INVADE AND CONQUER! To teh victors go the spOILs!
11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you...
I'd take Ms. I'm-not-cute to Savannah, Georgia.
12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
Can I cut off my hands?
13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
fuck I'm tired, where's my cat?
14. Favorite style of underwear?
ftw?
15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?
lil cotton matched set... yum
16. What errand/chore do you despise?
DISHES!!
17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer at an art gallery?
volunteer somewhere? yes... in an art gallery? no
18. Get up early or sleep in?
sleep in
19. What is your favorite cartoon character?
Stewie \m/
20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a girl/guy?
cuddle, I'm a softy...
21. A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing?
As of tuesday, I have these weird spots on the palms of my hands... they're everywhere, and they sbutch - sting, burn, AND itch. As of this morning, they started appearing on the soles of my feet.
22. Are you planning on remaining in your current field?
i hve no idea... I wanna be an engineer, and I want to be a Creative Services Producer, but thus far, I can't seem to get a job as either...
23. If you are not married, do you see yourself married in the next five years?
not legally
24. Your favorite lunch meat?
smoked provolone
25. What do you get every time you go into a WalMart?
an overwhelming feeling of hypocrisy; unfortunately I can't afford to shop anywhere else
26. Beach or lake?
um... you can't get to the lake w/o crossing the beach...
27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20?
FUCK YES
28. Who do you stalk on MySpace?
my ex, and an ex co-worker
29. Favorite guilty pleasure?
cheesecake and candy corn (sex is to "duh" to list here)
30. Movie you own that you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?
I only own cool movies (mostly cuz my ex stole the embarrasing ones)
31. What's your drink?
scotch. good scotch. straight and neat.
32. Cowboys or Indians?
Native Americans. we euro-mutts stole their land, and we aren't stopping, wtf is wrong with us?
33. Cops or Robbers?
cops, I like using handcuffs ;)
34. Do you cheer for the bad guy in a movie?
depends on the bad guy
35. What Hollywood star do you think resembles you best?
drew carey - before he lost the weight
36. If you had to pick one, which cast member of Lost would you be?
If I watched the show, I would have a better idea.
37. What do you want when you are sick?
video games, sex, uppers
38. Who from high school would you like to run into?
Bennett, although kinda selfishly, his mom's an attorney, and I could really use some advice from her...
39. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
Banana 101.5
42. Norm or Cliff?
Norm
43. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons?
The Simpsons!
44. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
whatever I did to screw up with The First Ex and Ms. I'm-not-cute.
45. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?
I work alone, but the guys on the other side of the cellular feed are pretty cool.
46. If you could get away with it, whom would you kill?
whom? fuck that... I have a fucking LIST!
47. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
Vincent D'Onofrio, find out if he's really crazy or just that damn good an actor
48. What famous person would you like to sleep with?
Angelina Jolie; I've never played with fake tits, I'm curious, and she's a freak *drool*
49. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
Nope.
50. Last book you read for real?
Mind Game by Christine Feehan.
51. Do you have a teddy bear?
I think so
52. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
o_O
53. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
Southern Bay Area (San Jose/Sunnyvale/etc)
54. Number of texts in a day?
nuthin but spam that - grr touchy subject... fucking Sprint
55. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or relationship?
I'm fucked either way...
57. Pencil or pen?
pen
59. How many jobs have you had?
paperboy, burger flipper, asst. chef, sales consultant, systems engineer, teaching and research assistant, consultant, driver/dispatcher, production assistant