THIS IS THE PRICE YOU PAY FOR LOSS OF CONTROL...

[fenixboy182]

Nothing has changed. I'm still sickened to the point of vomiting when I look at her. HOW THE FUCK COULD SHE DO THAT...HOW COULD YOU... I cant even put my head around it. I've never been so hurt in my life. Never. I've heard the first cut is the deepest...not true...My first wound never hurt like this. It's unforgivable. I can't focus on life...I can't sit still. I can't eat...FUCK ME. Flex was right "girls aren't as innocent as they seem, and nothing is sacred." I wish he wasn't right...goddamn do I wish he was wrong...

And don't you dare go around hating your friends for coming clean for you. They saved me...you didn't....HOW COULD YOU? HOW COULD YOU? YOU CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN YOURSELF...YOU GOT RID OF ME, TO BE WITH HIM...YOU KNEW EXACTLY WHAT YOU WERE WALKING INTO...FUCK ME...HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU? I CAN'T EVEN FINISH THIS...I CAN'T STOMACH THESE THOUGHTS...

"Didn't you ever think to stop
After the lights were off
Did I even cross your mind
As you slowly closed the blinds
And did you ever think of me
As you listened to him breathe
Did you love his body upon yours
As your clothing lines the floor
You knew what you were doing
But not what you'd be losing
I hope it was worth it, I hope you had fun
Are you happy now with what you've done...

I HOPE IT WAS WORTH IT...