CHALLENGE203 - FEAR; HOUSE, M.D. - CAMERON/THIRTEEN
Title: The death of me
Author: amazon_life
Prompt: Challenge203 - Fear
Fandom: House, M.D.
Pairing: Cameron/Thirteen
Rating: PG, I guess
Word Count: 234
I have lived in fear all my life. Fear that my mom would start showing symptoms. Fear that she would die, when she did. Fear someone would find out I kinda wanted her to die, in her final couple of years. Fear my dad would kill himself due to his depression after she died. Fear I would have Huntington’s, after I found out in Medical School there was a 50% chance I would.
Now that I know, I fear I will become my mom. I fear dying.
But those are not the only fears I currently have: I fear Allison Cameron. I fear the effect that woman seems to have on me. I fear how much I crave her touch, how I just can’t get enough of it. I fear how she makes me rethink all my “no relationships, no repeat performances” philosophy.
I fear she won’t leave that fucking stupid boyfriend of hers, like she has promised me she would. And I fear that she will, because he can give her emotional stability that I can’t. I fear I’ll bring her down with me. I fear she’ll die by watching me die. I fear hurting her, and I know I should leave her before I do, but I can’t.
I fear losing her, as much as I fear dying. Because I feel like being without her would already be the death of me.
And one more, because I really like this challenge. lol (I do hope this is allowed.)
Title: Fearless
Author: amazon_life
Prompt: Challenge203 - Fear
Fandom: House, M.D.
Pairing: Cameron/Thirteen
Rating: PG, I guess
Word Count: 234
As I make out with Remy Hadley inside the female bathroom, I fear someone might walk in. I specially fear it’ll be a nurse. Nurses seem to know everything that happens inside the hospital, and once one of them knows something, it’s a matter of minutes before they all do. And once over half the people in a building know something, chances are everyone else will soon know, too.
That’s what I actually fear: not the nurses knowing, but Robert knowing through them. I don’t want to hurt him, I really don’t. But I’m afraid I’ll have to: he’ll recover better from a breakup than from being cheated.
I just… I don’t feel as strongly for him as I do for her. I like him alright, but she makes me fly. And, although I’m afraid of heights, I want to fly with her, because she makes me feel safe.
That’s insane, given her health condition, but it’s true. I do fear, sooner or later, the impulsiveness of her disease will make her get tired of me. I fear even more that she won’t, as she promises me every time I voice that concern. I fear we’ll stay together, and she’ll die on me, and I’ll go through that pain all over again. But, when I’m with her, none of those fears matter. I feel brave, fearless. And I want to feel that way forever.
Author: amazon_life
Prompt: Challenge203 - Fear
Fandom: House, M.D.
Pairing: Cameron/Thirteen
Rating: PG, I guess
Word Count: 234
I have lived in fear all my life. Fear that my mom would start showing symptoms. Fear that she would die, when she did. Fear someone would find out I kinda wanted her to die, in her final couple of years. Fear my dad would kill himself due to his depression after she died. Fear I would have Huntington’s, after I found out in Medical School there was a 50% chance I would.
Now that I know, I fear I will become my mom. I fear dying.
But those are not the only fears I currently have: I fear Allison Cameron. I fear the effect that woman seems to have on me. I fear how much I crave her touch, how I just can’t get enough of it. I fear how she makes me rethink all my “no relationships, no repeat performances” philosophy.
I fear she won’t leave that fucking stupid boyfriend of hers, like she has promised me she would. And I fear that she will, because he can give her emotional stability that I can’t. I fear I’ll bring her down with me. I fear she’ll die by watching me die. I fear hurting her, and I know I should leave her before I do, but I can’t.
I fear losing her, as much as I fear dying. Because I feel like being without her would already be the death of me.
And one more, because I really like this challenge. lol (I do hope this is allowed.)
Title: Fearless
Author: amazon_life
Prompt: Challenge203 - Fear
Fandom: House, M.D.
Pairing: Cameron/Thirteen
Rating: PG, I guess
Word Count: 234
As I make out with Remy Hadley inside the female bathroom, I fear someone might walk in. I specially fear it’ll be a nurse. Nurses seem to know everything that happens inside the hospital, and once one of them knows something, it’s a matter of minutes before they all do. And once over half the people in a building know something, chances are everyone else will soon know, too.
That’s what I actually fear: not the nurses knowing, but Robert knowing through them. I don’t want to hurt him, I really don’t. But I’m afraid I’ll have to: he’ll recover better from a breakup than from being cheated.
I just… I don’t feel as strongly for him as I do for her. I like him alright, but she makes me fly. And, although I’m afraid of heights, I want to fly with her, because she makes me feel safe.
That’s insane, given her health condition, but it’s true. I do fear, sooner or later, the impulsiveness of her disease will make her get tired of me. I fear even more that she won’t, as she promises me every time I voice that concern. I fear we’ll stay together, and she’ll die on me, and I’ll go through that pain all over again. But, when I’m with her, none of those fears matter. I feel brave, fearless. And I want to feel that way forever.