I think that Carmine... while she certainly held a great deal of affection for Mal, I don't know for sure is she loved her. I do know that, sometimes, on long days in Klatch, Carmine thinks about her, about what might have been if... all of that... It should be pointed out that Carmine's understanding of what "all of that" was, is a little different from what actually happened... It includes Mal being sent away, and Carmine recovering from being dusted (And finding out *why* Mal was sent away) and going back to Klatch with her family who are Very Dissapointed in her. It doesn't include Mal going squirrely because of it, or developing suicidal tendencies, or anywhere near that degree of self-loathing. It also doesn't include Mal becoming a black-ribboner. As far as she knows, Mal is still swanning around craggy castles, probably married off to someone irritating and male, and busy as all hell seducing her sisters-in-law. Or something like that. Carmine is not a black-ribboner. She likes playing Klatchian Devil, even if she does miss the damp of the mountains now and then. It's true, she could have gone back. When she turned one hundred, she could have gone anywhere she wanted (to an extent), but she never did. I think she knew that... things would be different. She's a tempest in a tea-cup, if you will. She gets very, *Very* passionate about one person, or another, but she eventually... runs out of steam with them, and she drifts away. Maybe she thinks it's better this way: to have been torn away from each-other unwillingly, rather than to break her heart (twice over?) by not loving Mal as much as Mal loved her. I think Carmine's memories of Mal are bitter-sweet. Touched with regret, maybe, but not with grief. Not like Mal's memories of her.
Can I get away with that? (Sort of Related: I just wrote a story from the PoV of Annie -- Sally's "not-girlfriend" -- and I'm wondering where the hell I can post it... ;-)
I think that Carmine... while she certainly held a great deal of affection for Mal, I don't know for sure is she loved her. I do know that, sometimes, on long days in Klatch, Carmine thinks about her, about what might have been if... all of that...
It should be pointed out that Carmine's understanding of what "all of that" was, is a little different from what actually happened... It includes Mal being sent away, and Carmine recovering from being dusted (And finding out *why* Mal was sent away) and going back to Klatch with her family who are Very Dissapointed in her.
It doesn't include Mal going squirrely because of it, or developing suicidal tendencies, or anywhere near that degree of self-loathing. It also doesn't include Mal becoming a black-ribboner.
As far as she knows, Mal is still swanning around craggy castles, probably married off to someone irritating and male, and busy as all hell seducing her sisters-in-law. Or something like that.
Carmine is not a black-ribboner. She likes playing Klatchian Devil, even if she does miss the damp of the mountains now and then.
It's true, she could have gone back. When she turned one hundred, she could have gone anywhere she wanted (to an extent), but she never did.
I think she knew that... things would be different.
She's a tempest in a tea-cup, if you will. She gets very, *Very* passionate about one person, or another, but she eventually... runs out of steam with them, and she drifts away.
Maybe she thinks it's better this way: to have been torn away from each-other unwillingly, rather than to break her heart (twice over?) by not loving Mal as much as Mal loved her.
I think Carmine's memories of Mal are bitter-sweet. Touched with regret, maybe, but not with grief. Not like Mal's memories of her.
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Beyond that, I have no idea. :-)
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(Sort of Related: I just wrote a story from the PoV of Annie -- Sally's "not-girlfriend" -- and I'm wondering where the hell I can post it... ;-)
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If you set it on the Disc, you can't sell it on, and probably fans will not be THAT interested. I would, but, you know.
...You could post it on femslash100, if you find the right challenge. Or you could start your own website and post everything there.
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