Something I am in the process of learning right now

[femme_roses]

The more genuine I am, the more authentically I express the ideas and feelings I feel passionate about,

This is directly proportionate to the probability that

I am more likely piss people off. It increases the likelihood that there will be people who think less of me, or decide they don’t like me at all.

Or call me crazy

Or call me a slut

Or disregard, invalidate, or even harass me.

I'm not that happy about that idea. I want to be liked by everybody in the whole damn world. Yeah, I realize that may be immature. It’s still true. And there is a good chance that expressing such a thought means that one or more people will decide they don’t like me.

So what I'm learning is that if that’s the case, it’s ok.

I'm going to have to find away to feel safe and validated and even happy when that happens. It’s more important to me at this time in my life to be who I am meant to be, in all my original messy glory than to please others and not know who the hell I am.

Much to my surprise I can’t please the world even when I exhaust myself trying. There are still dissatisfied critics and witnesses to my feeble efforts.

I would rather like who I am, be confident and whole, than have a façade of me be the sum of my existence.