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[felunafire]

Yesterday was the first day I hadn't seen Damien; he came over every weekday before that. It didn't feel weird at all for me, I was actually good with having a little break time for myself, but when I called him later he seemed a little out of sorts for not seeing me that day. I wonder if this is the point where the guy starts to like me a lot

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[leav_me_2_bleed]

Okay well first off with the whole Damien thingy, as long as you're not leading him on there is no problem. But if you are that is bad, very bad. It isn't right to do that, ya know? Feelings get hurt really badly. You should be straight forward and tell how you feel even if it is just that you are confused. I know this from experience *coughs a lot.* Though I hope you give him a chance because he seems to actually care! And that is worth a lot.
As for that certain individual idk what to tell you. You can do so much better!! And damn him for being blind, damn him to hell *shakes fist.* One day, one day... we shall all see *evil laugh.* As for that other person eh. That whole thing depresses me. But I in no way hold that against you. Men *sigh.* Actually I was talking to this gurl named Sarah LMAO... but anywayz she is a lesbian and she said 'so you're a dirty bi-sexual? that just means you'll only like gurls in the end' And I keep going back and forth on that one. hehe idk *sigh* women. O to be A-sexual....
I know that Paula and I aren't close but i'm sad that she is leaving. People can change so much in a year and she is going to be in a different country!! Depressing stuff. But I'm sure you guys will keep in touch!! And when she comes back it'll be some crazy stuff! *evil laugh*
As for this rubber ducky she loves you too! And she also thinks that we should do something... I've been out and about at times but I have been somewhat confined. I guess I'm just scared to push my fathers limits and man there is this thing that i might do, but ummm yea lmao IDK!...
Wuv ya much! ttyl!!!

[felunafire]

Thanks Alisha for the advice; Damien came over today, and yes I'm scared of letting myself be vulnerable, but I can see that he has his insecurities too...I'll tell you more about a specific example later. I don't know, I just want him to be comfortable around me, and my greatest fear is using him or hurting him because he's been nothing but heaven to me. Especially today...this is the first time that I've felt that I'm getting treated the way I treat my significant other, and in some ways he's even better than me; that's saying a lot. It's weird, this equality, loving-nurturing thing lol...I just want it to work out, but I have to admit that I like my free time too. Meh I don't know if any of this makes sense, but I can guarantee that you'll approve--heck my mom's boyfriend did, and he's a tough one to get approval from when it comes to guys. So yay...and remind me to show you the text message he sent me tonight. So...what's this thing about what you might do but you have to be sneaky about? And a chica too? Hmmm...lol.