~pissed,angered,fuctup,Depressed~
So finally my lecturer decides to give us the focus points for our marketing n Selling and sales. Damm im so fucking pissed and my morale's so fuckin low. ok let me explain. I put alot of shit,crap and tears into my project arite? get that fuckin straight. Im talkin abt my marketing. And guess what i got!! A shit full of fucking 'C'! This might sound almost cruel or competetive but i guess this is the only way I can yell, shout and throw words as free as I want and say how I really feel. Let me start! Vicky, (from my class) did a last min work. And i know im not suppose to judge but i was with her on the day we were suppose to hand in!! And I. I'l emphasis the word 'I'!! got late for class because I stayed back to help her here and there, to give ideas and ended up juz in time to end up the project. So now she got a B!!! Hello!!! What the fuck is wrong with my lecturer?!? Im so pissed. Not with her but with how the whole blardiee grade which turned!! I know I put in all the important points while she actually was lost for what to write on that day!! So my hard work gets a C and her last minute work got a B! It might not sound so important but it is to me. Now im wondering if all my studying would pay off, or should i juz slack! What?! If i put in my tears n hard work for the proggy and got a C and someone who did a last min work got B ( Marks had a big diff!!! She got 25 and i got 18!!) I might as well not study!! Right?!?! I feel like crying but Il juz sound like im whining. I kinda told my other lecturer how i Felt..he told me ' it's not important, what is wld be your Exams' but that isnt helping me. My bf told me the same thing. But hello, im the one who did that proggy and stayed up late all the while! ok imma shuddap now cuz im pissed. Gawd! *shakes head* *breaks down crying*
so ofcuz i put on a facade in class acting all satisfied and glad that i even passed my proggy. I got a B for selling but every1 got that so no biggie. Im glad i got a B for SSM but a C for marketing in which i put in alot has really gotten my morale down :( Im still upset il tell ya that. I got no idea who im talkin to, maybe juz to my pc. To anyone reading this. I dunno. Dont leave me messages in the LJ if ya gon say 'how can u be so this n that or get over it' Shut up then. Im not gon take it to my face so lightly! Im meeting Selfiana tomorrow to study. Met to study with her today too. I HAVE TO STUDY. IM AIMING FOR Bs FOR ALL 4 MODULES. Since A isnt easy to get. I want my Diploma Cert to look good. Now there's some motivation. To be a good student. See i never was a top or good student in Secondary sch. I juz faired ok n border line in sch. Well over with that! Im going to get Bs. *heaves a heavy sigh*
*im so troubled over this project grade, but what can I do? Nothing to change that.
so ofcuz i put on a facade in class acting all satisfied and glad that i even passed my proggy. I got a B for selling but every1 got that so no biggie. Im glad i got a B for SSM but a C for marketing in which i put in alot has really gotten my morale down :( Im still upset il tell ya that. I got no idea who im talkin to, maybe juz to my pc. To anyone reading this. I dunno. Dont leave me messages in the LJ if ya gon say 'how can u be so this n that or get over it' Shut up then. Im not gon take it to my face so lightly! Im meeting Selfiana tomorrow to study. Met to study with her today too. I HAVE TO STUDY. IM AIMING FOR Bs FOR ALL 4 MODULES. Since A isnt easy to get. I want my Diploma Cert to look good. Now there's some motivation. To be a good student. See i never was a top or good student in Secondary sch. I juz faired ok n border line in sch. Well over with that! Im going to get Bs. *heaves a heavy sigh*
*im so troubled over this project grade, but what can I do? Nothing to change that.