Mad Mad Mad Dream
I know that when you wake up enervated by a dream and try and communicate how amazing it was, nobody ever gets it, but the dream I had last night... My God...
I was waiting in a room having turned up for a job interview, and I suddenly realised that I was a bit confused about my work history; I was finding it difficult to remember what jobs I did in which order, and I knew that they were going to ask me to talk through it. As I tried to concntrate and think through my work history, I started to get confused between real jobs that I'd done (and places that I'd lived, and people I'd been with), and ones I'd only dreamed about. I'd think something like, 'Ok, after that job, I moved to this place and did this job... no, hang on, that was just a dream'.
This is the mad part though - I'm absolutely certain that the dreams I was coming up with and being unsure as to whether they'd really happened or not were dreams I've really had in the past, and hadn't remembered since, in fact would never in a million years have remembered since. And yet I was 'remembering' them now with such clarity that I was getting them confused with my real past. Now that I've woken up, I can remember the dream of the interview; the feelings, what I've described above, some things about the interviewer and so on, but the details of the dreams I was remembering from long ago have faded much more quickly, and I can only remember very vague snatches of them.
I am, though, absolutely certain that they were dreams I have actually had, in some cases years ago, and I'm also certain that in my dream last night I remembered them with almost perfect clarity, and that I never would or will, as far as I can see, be able to remember them with anything approaching that clarity in waking hours. The inference, of course, is that all those dreams, and who knows how many thousands of others, really are stored, in full, up there in my grey matter somewhere, and that I just can't access them through normal waking memory pathways.
Maybe it's just me, but that to me seems amazing... it suggests that maybe there is some way, through either technology, or maybe lucid dreaming, to get those dreams/memories back and 'watch' or remember them in some way. And, to everyone and anyone who has woken up thrown by the sheer vivdness and relevance and oddness of a dream, that must be a pretty damn cool concept...
I was waiting in a room having turned up for a job interview, and I suddenly realised that I was a bit confused about my work history; I was finding it difficult to remember what jobs I did in which order, and I knew that they were going to ask me to talk through it. As I tried to concntrate and think through my work history, I started to get confused between real jobs that I'd done (and places that I'd lived, and people I'd been with), and ones I'd only dreamed about. I'd think something like, 'Ok, after that job, I moved to this place and did this job... no, hang on, that was just a dream'.
This is the mad part though - I'm absolutely certain that the dreams I was coming up with and being unsure as to whether they'd really happened or not were dreams I've really had in the past, and hadn't remembered since, in fact would never in a million years have remembered since. And yet I was 'remembering' them now with such clarity that I was getting them confused with my real past. Now that I've woken up, I can remember the dream of the interview; the feelings, what I've described above, some things about the interviewer and so on, but the details of the dreams I was remembering from long ago have faded much more quickly, and I can only remember very vague snatches of them.
I am, though, absolutely certain that they were dreams I have actually had, in some cases years ago, and I'm also certain that in my dream last night I remembered them with almost perfect clarity, and that I never would or will, as far as I can see, be able to remember them with anything approaching that clarity in waking hours. The inference, of course, is that all those dreams, and who knows how many thousands of others, really are stored, in full, up there in my grey matter somewhere, and that I just can't access them through normal waking memory pathways.
Maybe it's just me, but that to me seems amazing... it suggests that maybe there is some way, through either technology, or maybe lucid dreaming, to get those dreams/memories back and 'watch' or remember them in some way. And, to everyone and anyone who has woken up thrown by the sheer vivdness and relevance and oddness of a dream, that must be a pretty damn cool concept...