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every time i hear bad company's "feel like makin' love" i am reminded of a crush i had. his nme was JW and we worked on set construction together my freshman year of high school. he brought in this bad company tape and we would listen to it as we constructed and painted sets. he was a junior and likely did not say a word to me. i am friends with him on facebook and the years have not been kind. it is just so strange to think back to the days of crushing and naive optimism. life has crushed a lot of that out of me and i cannot seem to find myself attracted to anyone anymore. i liked that guy i "met" through the internet and it turns out that he will not be moving here. i felt a little heartbroken, but it just figures that i would have that sort of dumb luck. i always have that sort of dumb luck. i have resigned it to myself that i will just be alone the rest of my life, which is ok. i am looking at a house in my neighborhood and i would not have to share it with anybody but out of town guests.