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[feliciafidelity]

i have been really angry and depressed lately. i really dont know why im sick of everything. i punched the wall in my room luckily i didnt dent the wall i dont feel like dealing with that. i keep having bad thoughts though i dont know if i can keep going on. ive gained alot of weight too its rediculous. my friend is gonna give me the nutrtion diet crap she used and she lost a shit load of weight so maybe it will help.

i have to start getting together a portfolio of all my good photos and i need to save for a new camera. i need to read the driving book to so i can know everything for the permit test. which isnt till july so i have time.

im going to see the white stripes too. my mom is bringing me and a friend for my birthday which sucks now i have to spend time with the women i hate in the city i love. and best of all her gay ass boyfriend is coming. fagggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

i still like chad but he is going out with this girl that likes to give me extremely dirty looks. i dont like her. ive kind of given up on men. but i kind of like this one kid in auto who is a freshman. but i dont know.

i hope i can hang out with nick on friday i havent seen him for awhile he'll probably ditch me for some random girl. owell shit happens.

im talking to jon now. good bye.