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its been

moments since I thought about you

in any capacity

minutes since

I remembered some portion of our story

hours since I felt anger

days since I tried to pick up my phone

weeks since I last contacted you

months since we last touched.

its been

months since you crushed me

weeks since I put on the brave face

days since I longed for you

hours since I spoke of you

minutes of staring into a blank screen

silently pleading

moments before all this is behind me again.

It’ll be

Moments of weakness

when I think about “us”

Minutes of silent cursing

while you run through my mind

Hours of rationalizing

before I let it go

Days of depression

I know

Weeks of emotions crammed into a few minutes

Months of self doubt and insanity

Soon it’ll be

years

But I’ll always have

the

tears.

- Benjamin Valenzuela