end of the month, end of a heart
wow. must be worth something for me to put two entries in one day. lets go people.
funny how life bites the hand that feeds it.
funny how life and history repeats itself.
saitou-kun hurt me 3 years ago.
no saitou hurts me today
"friends"
i tought... that this could be the one. now i curse myself for being so deluded.
he said that it was all a waste of time. that we spent those times together and it all ends to this.
she asked if friends hurt like this.
maybe. it wouldnt be the first time that a friend hurt me.
its not like i felt it was a waste of time, i dont regret that i fell in love with him but to have it... devlove into friendship just like that.
its hard to love someone who hurt you.
im afraid
im afraid of..
im afraid that if we became only friends, this intensity that i had for him would continue to disappear.
pain lets you know that youre still alive
if you wish to end the pain, do you wish to end life? tick and answer
_/_ yes
___ no
but i wont.
no one reads a story just to come to the middle of the book.
i remember how people who knew me from before commented on how happy and alive i looked. thatwas back in june, july.
i cant even smile now.
i dont hate him or anything.
i am finished with crying although if i hear him or see him right now, i will.
now those dreams i had kept, those wishes i had in my heart, i know now that they were just a waste of dream stuffs and stars.
my heart, confirmed dead at 1:00 pm
thank you, that is all
no that is not all. i feel like vomiting my heart.
last night, i was feeling woozy and lightheaded. i was thinking last night, "i hope hes alright."
and the next day happens.
why do i post uber personal stuff for you people to read? because youre my friends. if i didnt want anyone to read this, i wouldnt have put it here.
funny how life bites the hand that feeds it.
funny how life and history repeats itself.
saitou-kun hurt me 3 years ago.
no saitou hurts me today
"friends"
i tought... that this could be the one. now i curse myself for being so deluded.
he said that it was all a waste of time. that we spent those times together and it all ends to this.
she asked if friends hurt like this.
maybe. it wouldnt be the first time that a friend hurt me.
its not like i felt it was a waste of time, i dont regret that i fell in love with him but to have it... devlove into friendship just like that.
its hard to love someone who hurt you.
im afraid
im afraid of..
im afraid that if we became only friends, this intensity that i had for him would continue to disappear.
pain lets you know that youre still alive
if you wish to end the pain, do you wish to end life? tick and answer
_/_ yes
___ no
but i wont.
no one reads a story just to come to the middle of the book.
i remember how people who knew me from before commented on how happy and alive i looked. thatwas back in june, july.
i cant even smile now.
i dont hate him or anything.
i am finished with crying although if i hear him or see him right now, i will.
now those dreams i had kept, those wishes i had in my heart, i know now that they were just a waste of dream stuffs and stars.
my heart, confirmed dead at 1:00 pm
thank you, that is all
no that is not all. i feel like vomiting my heart.
last night, i was feeling woozy and lightheaded. i was thinking last night, "i hope hes alright."
and the next day happens.
why do i post uber personal stuff for you people to read? because youre my friends. if i didnt want anyone to read this, i wouldnt have put it here.