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[feistymango]

I fucking hate my life. It's hard to tell where the lies stop and the truth begins... or if there is any truth at all. My mother keeps calling me in as a runaway... You all know I've only run away once, and the other times I was just trying to spend time with a wonderful person, someone who actually doesn't make me feel like crap all the time. My

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[bossmanbob]

if you WANT a friend, i have never left. i realize im not much, and i realize i dont make you happy, but i am here. always. forever. let me know if you want me as your friend.

im not holding my breath. honestly, i dont expect anyone to want me back. not after what i did. its nothing personal, but if i were you, i wouldnt take me back. i dont even forive MYSELF. god. anyways, give me a call if you want to talk....

probly not though.

you have will

what use do you have for me?

[bossmanbob]

You do make me happy and I want you as a friend... I never said I didn't.

I think my sister hates me now too... isn't that lovely? Or at least she is VERY dissapointed with me.

[pinklasagne]

Ditto...pretty much what he said...lol! I left you a message today, but I know you probably weren't allowed to call me back. I am here as well. As I have said countless times. I am glad you seem to have found someone wonderful. I just don't know where to go from here. I miss you SO terribly...such that I too am feeling quite alone. My family is, well, my family, scattered about the country. And I have no special guy to brighten my days. But we wont get into that...not now, not here. LOL...blah...life is so damn relentless isn't it? Remember...I am here..

[feistymango]

Thank you dear, I'm sorry I haven't been around for you lately. I'll try and do better about that. Thank you for calling me back too, although right now it's looking like there wont be any cats for you to look after anyways...

Actually, I love you.

[bon_fire]

I certainly don't hate you. I am trying to get mom to calm down and come up with a workable solution so you can have more freedom and be in a good place. It's only six more months, but I would like to broker a ceasefire so it doesn't have to be six months of hell. I can't really do that if I call her a bitch and all- she just gets more and more out of control- I know from experience. I'm sorry you feel that I am telling you one thing and her another- I don't know what things these are so I can't address them. It is true that I phrase things differently when I talk to her-and I'm sure you know very well that she will alter what I say to serve her own purposes. I am worried about you- I expect you think that is ridiculous. In less than 9 months you will be out of high school and ready to start a new life. I know that is a long time when you deal with daily hassles and stress, but I want you to have a good starting place- a better one than I had. You have some of that already due to your own efforts- your stint in food service hell was

Re: Actually, I love you.

[feistymango]

Well, it's good to hear you don't hate me, it just feels like everyone is attacking me. I know this is not the case, but you know how it gets when you're backed into a corner. I'm sorry that you're worried about me. It will be nice to hang out with you for two weeks, eh? I promise I wont be a hellion.

Do you think there is anything I can do about this restraining order she's trying to get? I'd like you to meet him, if that's even possible with everyones schedules, but it will be impossible if there's a nasty little court order.

I love you and I'm sorry