Still hurting inside.
Still hurting so bad... I just can't seem to shake myself from this nightmare. I know things like this happen, but it shouldn't have.. not to him. No one else seems to understand... I was even told by a so called "friend" to "just get over it, I can't do anything about it" but that's not right, as I bawled my eyes out and was hysteric. This is a boy I grew up with and was very fond of... I wont just get over it and let his memory die like he did.. I refuse to. He was too good of a person to not be mourned over. And to that person, FUCK YOU, I don't know who the hell you think you are to say my feelings should be set aside because I can't do anything now. You'd feel totally different if you were in my situation, which I hope to God that you never have to deal with. I don't need your insensitive ass to comfort me, I have four great friends who have helped me through this, and obviously you'd not one if you aren't going to show any sort of compassion. You go ahead and be insensitive, but don't come crying to me when you need a shoulder to cry on.. I'll just simply tell you "get over it". You DON'T get over a 20 year old dying.
I didn't do much tonight, went to Hooters with Crystal so she could drop something off, and so we could try and win a trip to Mexico, but apparently you had to be 21. So we went and ate (cept not there, still haven't eaten there yet) We.... went and saw one of her friends for awhile, put MORE highlights in her hair... yup, that's about it. Vinny was there part of the time too, but he was being really quiet, still not sure why. I'll get it out of him eventually though. Could be 'cause I was fuckin with him.. but that's what I'm good at. Oh well... I have my interview/meeting tomorrow evening. Wish me luck!
I didn't do much tonight, went to Hooters with Crystal so she could drop something off, and so we could try and win a trip to Mexico, but apparently you had to be 21. So we went and ate (cept not there, still haven't eaten there yet) We.... went and saw one of her friends for awhile, put MORE highlights in her hair... yup, that's about it. Vinny was there part of the time too, but he was being really quiet, still not sure why. I'll get it out of him eventually though. Could be 'cause I was fuckin with him.. but that's what I'm good at. Oh well... I have my interview/meeting tomorrow evening. Wish me luck!