Smokey 10/1996-12/7/2005
I don't know how to feel. Today was the first day I woke up without him.
He was struggling to breathe last night, and we took him to an emergency vet.
He was in heart failure and he was struggling to breathe because there was fluid in his lungs.
I could have tried to have them save him, but the chances of this happening again were high, and to keep him alive would mean he would be on medications and unhappy. I decided to let him go.
I had him put to sleep. I got to hold him and he was struggling for air, and then he stopped struggling and fell asleep and died.
I want my baby back so much, I think I did the right thing but I miss him so much it hurts. everything reminds me of him. I don't want him to be gone. I want to hug him and cuddle him and hear him purr again. I wanted to just bring him home last night, but I couldn't and he would have suffered.
He was my favorite, although I would have never admitted it, and he is gone now.
I feel numb and sad and confused and hurt and lost and I just don't know how to deal with this.
I don't want to make the adult decision, I didn't want to make the adult decision, I wanted my baby to come home and I wanted to keep him close to me.....but that wouldn't have been best for him. He's gone now and I don't know how to handle it.
I woke up this morning and looked for him and he wasn't there. there is an emptyness in me now. I lost one of my kids, and he isn't coming home.
He was struggling to breathe last night, and we took him to an emergency vet.
He was in heart failure and he was struggling to breathe because there was fluid in his lungs.
I could have tried to have them save him, but the chances of this happening again were high, and to keep him alive would mean he would be on medications and unhappy. I decided to let him go.
I had him put to sleep. I got to hold him and he was struggling for air, and then he stopped struggling and fell asleep and died.
I want my baby back so much, I think I did the right thing but I miss him so much it hurts. everything reminds me of him. I don't want him to be gone. I want to hug him and cuddle him and hear him purr again. I wanted to just bring him home last night, but I couldn't and he would have suffered.
He was my favorite, although I would have never admitted it, and he is gone now.
I feel numb and sad and confused and hurt and lost and I just don't know how to deal with this.
I don't want to make the adult decision, I didn't want to make the adult decision, I wanted my baby to come home and I wanted to keep him close to me.....but that wouldn't have been best for him. He's gone now and I don't know how to handle it.
I woke up this morning and looked for him and he wasn't there. there is an emptyness in me now. I lost one of my kids, and he isn't coming home.