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i had a dream last night that was surprisingly more positive than negative considering whats been going on...first one on that topic in a while...hmmm...wish the motherfucking fone didnt go off! (cheerz aunty gwen for interupting my damned dream!)
other than that...im tryna decide which suit to wear to work tommorow...
i mean if i had a black blazer, i'd go in as a man...wear my black trousers, black traimers, black blouse, a tie from dad and a black blazer (dad's dont fit me unless i wanna be a wide boy) and slick my hair back with LOADS of styling clay...and eyeliner a moustache and goatie on...i might di that for the last day of term at school tho if i can borrow a blazer off arun or summat...
if i had more notice id'a gone out and bought summat to dress up in...
i cud go as a greek goddess...if i find a picture of one and some decent clothes..? or i cudwear a toga....hmmm...that'd be cool lol...i might just do that...*goes to txt arun*
other than that kinda worried about nanaji...i havent heard anything else other than the cutting off the antibiotics...*sighs* why now?...
its selfish to want to keep him here if he's in pain, and at the end of the day, its his subconcious decision isnt it?...if he chooses he's tired of this life, and has lived in pain for roughly 30 years of his 68 years of life, and he decided he's too tired...then yeh its his decision...i dunno weni saw him on wednesday...the fact that he didnt know who i was erally hurt...and then just the look in his eyes...his manner was just 'im tured...let me go' and...fucking hell u know?...i hope somone knows coz i dont. if he gives up...its his choice coz he's the one who wud have to live with any pain he suffers, if he chooses to fight...he's still being selfish coz he wants to keep everyone happy so that he can be happy...
fucking hell...paradox or what...
other than that...im tryna decide which suit to wear to work tommorow...
i mean if i had a black blazer, i'd go in as a man...wear my black trousers, black traimers, black blouse, a tie from dad and a black blazer (dad's dont fit me unless i wanna be a wide boy) and slick my hair back with LOADS of styling clay...and eyeliner a moustache and goatie on...i might di that for the last day of term at school tho if i can borrow a blazer off arun or summat...
if i had more notice id'a gone out and bought summat to dress up in...
i cud go as a greek goddess...if i find a picture of one and some decent clothes..? or i cudwear a toga....hmmm...that'd be cool lol...i might just do that...*goes to txt arun*
other than that kinda worried about nanaji...i havent heard anything else other than the cutting off the antibiotics...*sighs* why now?...
its selfish to want to keep him here if he's in pain, and at the end of the day, its his subconcious decision isnt it?...if he chooses he's tired of this life, and has lived in pain for roughly 30 years of his 68 years of life, and he decided he's too tired...then yeh its his decision...i dunno weni saw him on wednesday...the fact that he didnt know who i was erally hurt...and then just the look in his eyes...his manner was just 'im tured...let me go' and...fucking hell u know?...i hope somone knows coz i dont. if he gives up...its his choice coz he's the one who wud have to live with any pain he suffers, if he chooses to fight...he's still being selfish coz he wants to keep everyone happy so that he can be happy...
fucking hell...paradox or what...