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i went. i was gonna go straight from school on my own, but i decided to ring mum and ask if she was going tonight anyway...she said yeh and to go to my nans...so i went there...and i waited...and while i was waiting and in betwen dealing with my screeching 1 yr old brat, i wrote an addition to that little 'fic' i've started...neways we went to the hospital about 6 ish...
its not nice seeing your grandad on a drip, with a medication line in his arm, on oxygen, his foot bandaged to high heaven, his amputated leg infected, his face bloated from water retention, his eyes red for blindness, and constant choking, retching.
didnt go well.
its so much worse wn out of the 5 people there...i am the one he doesnt recognise.
i burst into tears in the middle of trying to drive in my driving lesson...and at the end aswell.
speaking of driving lessons, unless she gets a caneclation...my next one is in JANUARY!
god...it all sucks. and i dunno if i feel worse or better for having gone to see him.
its not nice seeing your grandad on a drip, with a medication line in his arm, on oxygen, his foot bandaged to high heaven, his amputated leg infected, his face bloated from water retention, his eyes red for blindness, and constant choking, retching.
didnt go well.
its so much worse wn out of the 5 people there...i am the one he doesnt recognise.
i burst into tears in the middle of trying to drive in my driving lesson...and at the end aswell.
speaking of driving lessons, unless she gets a caneclation...my next one is in JANUARY!
god...it all sucks. and i dunno if i feel worse or better for having gone to see him.