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FRUSTRATED.
i had the most frustrating dreams that came into my sleep in a row and it really affected me whn i woke up.
dreams like;
1) going to chalet and me and nas had the whole room to ourselves, and it reminded me of that time when me, iryan and rudy had the whole room to ourselves at siloso beach resort and how we had fun. so i called iryan and he said, "oh got you ah? haha sorry dont wanna waste time." then he hung up. then i felt sad.
2) looking down from a bridge and i was like looking at the cars drive past under the bridge.. when suddenly afiq(younger one) came to me with fanaa at his side critisizing my rugby skills. said something like "you're gonna be useless with your lower spine acting up on you like that. it aint gna bring you far. haha." and i really felt down and i continued looking down at the cars, resting my chin on my forearm.
3) was lepak-ing with kelvin outside the school void deck. he smoked a few puffs then he said "roy, you're a lazy fighter". i think it mightbe the contender asia getting into my head but i doubt so.
there are a few others but i forgot how it went.
worse ones are life threatening.
DREAMS THAT DEMORALISED ME LIKE FUCK EVEN WHEN I WOKE UP.
even punching and kicking my beloved punching bag in my room wont work whn i woke up.
cause i felt that the bag aint alive, so it gave me the most stupid (not brave) idea k.
frustrated and really affected my self-esteem.
getting lower and lower that i feel like exploding.
there's a saying that, "in every violent man, lies an insecurity."
i think its true.
dont know, maybe i need someone to talk to. any kind soul?
i just feel so empty and frustrated and lonely that i feel so fucked la can.
everyday is like a BURDEN having to maintain my composure amd entertain myself.
fuck la.
ok enough of this.
so ya. logged on to friendster and looked at afiq(hizami)'s profile.
CB THE BLOODY SONG.
OK. TO ANYONE WHO'S READING THIS, IF YOU CALL YOURSELF MY FRIEND PLEASE LISTEN.
JUST PRESS PLAY. ONE CLICK ONLY PLEASE PLASE.
YAH BITCH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
what the fuck?!?!?!?!?!?!???!?!?!?!??!!!!?!??!?!?!!???!??!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
freaking spoiled the whole song la cb.
YAAAAA BITCH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA your father la.
afiqhizami wants to grow fat! says:
skrang kau tau kenape aku tak suke dngr mp3 time work-out. pasal ade lagu2 bodoh mcm gini ar [now you know why i dont like listening to mp3 when i work out. cause got stupid songs like this]
afiqhizami wants to grow fat! says:
wahahaha
roy Ω ; frustrated.. says:
HAHAHAHA
fuck man. im gonna put this inside my mp3.
i had the most frustrating dreams that came into my sleep in a row and it really affected me whn i woke up.
dreams like;
1) going to chalet and me and nas had the whole room to ourselves, and it reminded me of that time when me, iryan and rudy had the whole room to ourselves at siloso beach resort and how we had fun. so i called iryan and he said, "oh got you ah? haha sorry dont wanna waste time." then he hung up. then i felt sad.
2) looking down from a bridge and i was like looking at the cars drive past under the bridge.. when suddenly afiq(younger one) came to me with fanaa at his side critisizing my rugby skills. said something like "you're gonna be useless with your lower spine acting up on you like that. it aint gna bring you far. haha." and i really felt down and i continued looking down at the cars, resting my chin on my forearm.
3) was lepak-ing with kelvin outside the school void deck. he smoked a few puffs then he said "roy, you're a lazy fighter". i think it mightbe the contender asia getting into my head but i doubt so.
there are a few others but i forgot how it went.
worse ones are life threatening.
DREAMS THAT DEMORALISED ME LIKE FUCK EVEN WHEN I WOKE UP.
even punching and kicking my beloved punching bag in my room wont work whn i woke up.
cause i felt that the bag aint alive, so it gave me the most stupid (not brave) idea k.
frustrated and really affected my self-esteem.
getting lower and lower that i feel like exploding.
there's a saying that, "in every violent man, lies an insecurity."
i think its true.
dont know, maybe i need someone to talk to. any kind soul?
i just feel so empty and frustrated and lonely that i feel so fucked la can.
everyday is like a BURDEN having to maintain my composure amd entertain myself.
fuck la.
ok enough of this.
so ya. logged on to friendster and looked at afiq(hizami)'s profile.
CB THE BLOODY SONG.
OK. TO ANYONE WHO'S READING THIS, IF YOU CALL YOURSELF MY FRIEND PLEASE LISTEN.
JUST PRESS PLAY. ONE CLICK ONLY PLEASE PLASE.
YAH BITCH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
what the fuck?!?!?!?!?!?!???!?!?!?!??!!!!?!??!?!?!!???!??!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
freaking spoiled the whole song la cb.
YAAAAA BITCH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA your father la.
afiqhizami wants to grow fat! says:
skrang kau tau kenape aku tak suke dngr mp3 time work-out. pasal ade lagu2 bodoh mcm gini ar [now you know why i dont like listening to mp3 when i work out. cause got stupid songs like this]
afiqhizami wants to grow fat! says:
wahahaha
roy Ω ; frustrated.. says:
HAHAHAHA
fuck man. im gonna put this inside my mp3.