its growing
so they said it would but i never believe anything anyone ever says.
you know these past few years have ended in blurs but in very detailed memory. i dont remeber how i gt this far in life without feeling any pain deeper than once ince under the skin. im not sad, nor depressed. im actually kind of happy, but only happy as life lets you be. it can be going great, then you lose a friend and once you get comforatble with that, you lose another. (i dont want to get used to that one)and then you lose money but lots of it and regret anything that came from that. then you lend a helping hand and realize you really did want something in return. Then reality can hit you someday, hasnt hit me yet but the way ive seen things spin off im starting to believe 'they' a little. not much but just enough. you cant really believe everything nr should you ever. i wont anyway and we'll see if i really do fail at life. its not her fault she says the things she says or thinks the things she thinks so im not pushing blame on anyone. however he knows damn well. but i think hes kinda like me in a way that he's rather fuck things away than ever really face it. and so i wont blame him either.
as for my recent living in Oz, he's had it with me but i have too. and maybe we'll end up waking up next to each other one other day as for now im taking it a day at a time and finding love elsewhere.
to be continued..
you know these past few years have ended in blurs but in very detailed memory. i dont remeber how i gt this far in life without feeling any pain deeper than once ince under the skin. im not sad, nor depressed. im actually kind of happy, but only happy as life lets you be. it can be going great, then you lose a friend and once you get comforatble with that, you lose another. (i dont want to get used to that one)and then you lose money but lots of it and regret anything that came from that. then you lend a helping hand and realize you really did want something in return. Then reality can hit you someday, hasnt hit me yet but the way ive seen things spin off im starting to believe 'they' a little. not much but just enough. you cant really believe everything nr should you ever. i wont anyway and we'll see if i really do fail at life. its not her fault she says the things she says or thinks the things she thinks so im not pushing blame on anyone. however he knows damn well. but i think hes kinda like me in a way that he's rather fuck things away than ever really face it. and so i wont blame him either.
as for my recent living in Oz, he's had it with me but i have too. and maybe we'll end up waking up next to each other one other day as for now im taking it a day at a time and finding love elsewhere.
to be continued..