friends, family and whoever else
did anyone notice that i had a heart. a warm mushy heart that was completely capable of being taken and played with and me have no control over. it was able to hurt and ableto be given way without any limitations. he had my heart, i fell in love can you fucking beleve it? and i let him run away with it even when he said he would never make me any promises. the one person in this world i gave absolutely EVERYTHING to. it was more than just sex and long talks, good and bad but he saw me really cry and saw me really smile.
he humored me long enough to totally trust him and close my eyes tight for.
but he really never cared, to him it probably was jst the sex and the long talks. i have a feeling about everytime he smiled inside while i died alittle. and im tainted just like i have always wanted to be. and at the same time that i have yet to reach a day that i dont cry for him, i smile a little bit inside myself that ive accomplised (not beaten but accomplished) real life bitter ass heartbreak.
woe is me.
he humored me long enough to totally trust him and close my eyes tight for.
but he really never cared, to him it probably was jst the sex and the long talks. i have a feeling about everytime he smiled inside while i died alittle. and im tainted just like i have always wanted to be. and at the same time that i have yet to reach a day that i dont cry for him, i smile a little bit inside myself that ive accomplised (not beaten but accomplished) real life bitter ass heartbreak.
woe is me.