I think that I have lost all that keeps me in control of myself. It's a funny feeling, but I dont hate it. "It's only after you have lost everything that you are free to do anything."

its sophomore year, i don't feel it. How is it supposed to be sophmore year without having a freshman? i do not remember most of it at all. I remember track, and getting close with Steve before he left. I remember loosing touch with jimmy and billy and Doug and loosing my self in a spiral. I remember sneaking out for the first time, and finding the ( Read more... )

i really feel like a bullet could end all my problems

its scary, but nothing new.

im writing this with one hand ( Read more... )

hmm i need a girlfriend right now, any takers?
someone seek adventure with me, its time to find more bud.

She pins her heart to her sleeve
but what was once short
is now long pass her wrists
to hide the fear she's kept so secretly.
and every passerby, she coexists with
and every gaze steals a piece of what keeps her together
soon enough she'll be worn to thin
and collapse, waiting for the one
to pick up the secrets,
and plaster them in red against the

Go tell your friends how i hurt your head
and ill tell myself how you make me bleed.
keep up the act of "how's he been"
and ill keep up the story of "i fell down the stairs"
but when its all said and done, who really loses?
The lover, or the friend?

I can't find a way around my own heart ( Read more... )

Don't think you'll ever get too far from me honey.
every step left you take left ill take two right
until you brace yourself for the break
and run back to my side
defenseless and dependent.
unless someone else rides upon their white horse
and whisks you off your feet.
i'll be here waiting
just two steps to the right
and one break of heart away.

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