Monday
I have it lined up tomorrow for my friend Kara to come over and be with me while I (hopefully) finally deal with the flat tire. I am not sure of the final plan, but I am either going to try to inflate it with a small inflator and then drive, or call a tow to take it to the place. It is going to only be in the low teens though, so it will be very cold and not pleasant.
An hour ago or so I felt really anxious. I think it is part the situation in general, dealing with car stuff always makes me anxious, and also the fact that I haven't driven in almost a month. I am not sure if it will be scary or if it will be okay driving again after the accident. I got out my animal/medicine cards, and the first one I drew was the badger. This is what the text says about the card - " If Badger has pushed its way into your cards today, it may be telling you that you have been too meek in trying to reach some goal. Badger asks you how long are you willing to sit and wait for the world to deliver your silver spoon. In this medicine, the key is to become aggressive enough to do something about your present state of affairs. Badger is teaching you to get angry in a creative way and say, "I won't take it any more." You must follow-up by keeping your eye on the goal. Honor the healing process as you express those inner feelings."
Hopefully I will wake up tomorrow and physically be able to handle this, or find some way to deal with it. I have been dizzy the past couple of days, especially on Thursday when I was not able to go to class.
An hour ago or so I felt really anxious. I think it is part the situation in general, dealing with car stuff always makes me anxious, and also the fact that I haven't driven in almost a month. I am not sure if it will be scary or if it will be okay driving again after the accident. I got out my animal/medicine cards, and the first one I drew was the badger. This is what the text says about the card - " If Badger has pushed its way into your cards today, it may be telling you that you have been too meek in trying to reach some goal. Badger asks you how long are you willing to sit and wait for the world to deliver your silver spoon. In this medicine, the key is to become aggressive enough to do something about your present state of affairs. Badger is teaching you to get angry in a creative way and say, "I won't take it any more." You must follow-up by keeping your eye on the goal. Honor the healing process as you express those inner feelings."
Hopefully I will wake up tomorrow and physically be able to handle this, or find some way to deal with it. I have been dizzy the past couple of days, especially on Thursday when I was not able to go to class.