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[fear0ffalling]

i hate it.
feeling vulnerable.
and emotional
and lonely
I felt it for days, an dI tried to pretend like it was fine.
I don't know if I want him back.
He pushed me around
made me think I wanted things that I didnt
was he scared
was he intimidated
I got along with his family
he got along with mine
I should had gone to the movies with him
I fucking messed up.
I wish I hadn't messed up.