Re: My Feelings
As if my slightly sullen post on Merlin wasn't enough of an indication that something's up with me today, I'm going to share what's going on at home. You know. Home. That eight hours north place.
My little sister had to be brought to the ER this afternoon because she's been off and on peeing blood for the better part of the month. It'd stopped for about a week or so and just started again last night. We're not sure what's going on with her and as of last contact with my mom roughly five minutes ago they've only just been put in a room now.
To make this somewhat worse, my cousin called my sister last night stoned and drunk out of his fucking mind telling her he was thinking about killing himself because he's such a loser and so depressed. He's been asking my grandfather for money, saying he needs to pay rent when he's been buying OxyContin with it instead. My mother's side of the family has a history of alcoholics in it and my uncle, my cousins father, is a "recovering" alcoholic now. He grew up in an environment where this shit was the norm and I've known this for practically ever, but he's so far gone recently I hate being around him.
He used to be one of my favorite cousins.
And he called my little sister who has her own suicidal thoughts and feelings to tell her about his.
Now there's this thing today. I'm really hoping this is a side-effect of one of her meds and not something serious because I don't know what I'll do at that point.
I'm fairly sure my mother is freaking out. She's been texting me every five minutes with absolutely no new updates.
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My little sister had to be brought to the ER this afternoon because she's been off and on peeing blood for the better part of the month. It'd stopped for about a week or so and just started again last night. We're not sure what's going on with her and as of last contact with my mom roughly five minutes ago they've only just been put in a room now.
To make this somewhat worse, my cousin called my sister last night stoned and drunk out of his fucking mind telling her he was thinking about killing himself because he's such a loser and so depressed. He's been asking my grandfather for money, saying he needs to pay rent when he's been buying OxyContin with it instead. My mother's side of the family has a history of alcoholics in it and my uncle, my cousins father, is a "recovering" alcoholic now. He grew up in an environment where this shit was the norm and I've known this for practically ever, but he's so far gone recently I hate being around him.
He used to be one of my favorite cousins.
And he called my little sister who has her own suicidal thoughts and feelings to tell her about his.
Now there's this thing today. I'm really hoping this is a side-effect of one of her meds and not something serious because I don't know what I'll do at that point.
I'm fairly sure my mother is freaking out. She's been texting me every five minutes with absolutely no new updates.
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