Sudden death in my choice-family.
Lily Elteto, a vivacious and delightfully weird person and my first ever true friend in my life, who was pretty much the #1 reason I moved to Portland to begin with and is someone I consider family-by-choice, died earlier from a seizure in her sleep. I spent the last half an hour bawling my eyes out and have only stopped for now because the mucus buildup in my sinuses as a result was literally making me choke and almost vomit. (Well, trying to stop, not having much luck.) So since I need to try to stop crying for now, and I still have feelings to express, I'm doing it in writing. Lily would understand and approve, I think. She loved the written word.
Lily was a joy to have around. Intelligent, funny, jocular, unconditionally loving, kind, generous, patient, thoughtful, accepting of eccentricities, highly eccentric herself, saw the best in people, and brought out a lot of good in others as well. She was a beacon of loving light, and the world is slightly darker with her gone.
But Lily's presence in my life continues. I have several friends more than I would have if I hadn't known her. Coming to Portland was such a good decision I honestly can't imagine what my life would be like if I hadn't, and I'm pretty sure I don't want to know. And it wouldn't have happened if not for Lily.
If I ever publish my Ravenstone book, and I hope that I do, I'm dedicating the first one to Lily. For so many reasons, that series wouldn't have happened if not for Lily. So much in my life wouldn't have happened without her. She wasn't with us as long as she should have, but boy did she make an impression while she was here! (sad smile and tears)
I feel really sad for Lily's mom Sharon, as well. Her youngest child died unexpectedly just about a week or two after her husband died. :-(
I have changed my default icon on DW and LJ to this crying girl to reflect my state of mourning. May make a memorial icon to use later. Yeah, that sounds like a good idea.
This was cross-posted from https://fayanora.dreamwidth.org/1440647.html
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Lily was a joy to have around. Intelligent, funny, jocular, unconditionally loving, kind, generous, patient, thoughtful, accepting of eccentricities, highly eccentric herself, saw the best in people, and brought out a lot of good in others as well. She was a beacon of loving light, and the world is slightly darker with her gone.
But Lily's presence in my life continues. I have several friends more than I would have if I hadn't known her. Coming to Portland was such a good decision I honestly can't imagine what my life would be like if I hadn't, and I'm pretty sure I don't want to know. And it wouldn't have happened if not for Lily.
If I ever publish my Ravenstone book, and I hope that I do, I'm dedicating the first one to Lily. For so many reasons, that series wouldn't have happened if not for Lily. So much in my life wouldn't have happened without her. She wasn't with us as long as she should have, but boy did she make an impression while she was here! (sad smile and tears)
I feel really sad for Lily's mom Sharon, as well. Her youngest child died unexpectedly just about a week or two after her husband died. :-(
I have changed my default icon on DW and LJ to this crying girl to reflect my state of mourning. May make a memorial icon to use later. Yeah, that sounds like a good idea.
This was cross-posted from https://fayanora.dreamwidth.org/1440647.html
You can comment either here or there.