I should really take my own advice...
Because it couldn't have been more true. He decided that it was better to get back with his ex, which I totally should have seen coming, as I said last week that it wasn't going to be worth it, but I must have quickly dismissed that. I need to focus more on my own thoughts and what I want. It just sucks because I've been to so many events where I could have a date but have never had the kind I wanted because I didn't have a boyfriend and then when I did have one I it ended up being the ruin of the relationship anyway.
So, I spent most of the day being miserable, but not quite as bad as before, but wasted most of my day nonetheless. But I did have a really good hair day, which seems lame, but when you have thin, crappy hair like mine, I really take delight in it. Then I had a very *intense* conversation online and a spontaneous excursion with a friend, which really made me feel better. And I totally appreciate the anonymous love from the last entry.
And my apologies for these blogs seeming so sad. As I think I've stated before, it is really a cathartic means of releasing my feelings without burdening someone's ears, per se. And it just seems to be the way I handle being depressed. Instead of sleeping away I write about it and I feel better. So, I will do my best to keep these a little more up beat, but not that many people really read these anyway, I don't think.
So, I spent most of the day being miserable, but not quite as bad as before, but wasted most of my day nonetheless. But I did have a really good hair day, which seems lame, but when you have thin, crappy hair like mine, I really take delight in it. Then I had a very *intense* conversation online and a spontaneous excursion with a friend, which really made me feel better. And I totally appreciate the anonymous love from the last entry.
And my apologies for these blogs seeming so sad. As I think I've stated before, it is really a cathartic means of releasing my feelings without burdening someone's ears, per se. And it just seems to be the way I handle being depressed. Instead of sleeping away I write about it and I feel better. So, I will do my best to keep these a little more up beat, but not that many people really read these anyway, I don't think.