Sad feels...
Today all I wanted to do was to be with my girlfriend. To spend some time laughing and playing around. I really miss being held, and holding her, but today is really feeling hard. She isn't really giving me time today. She said that she would call me back when she was done with a little something, and no calls back. She said this a few times and didn't call. I am having a hard time not calling and texting all day. It's not 6:48pm, which makes the time for her like 9:48p.m. and she has been turning in to sleep by 10:30 p.m.
However, I still have a long evening ahead. I can see why people end up dating off. I did express that I was longing for her company. But, she is just missing it. I need to go down and make dinner now. Outside is cloudy and grey, I just want a live in lover, partner and friend. Today and tonight really sucks. My heart feels some pain. I do not like long distance, as much as I did when I was younger.