Acceptance and Non-Acceptance
Hello friend,
After 8.5 years, I have decided to call it quits with Kia, she doesn't deserve someone like myself as a partner. I am not hurting it surprised me as I used too, a lot. I have feelings still for her, I am able to notice my urges to cling and call or text and choose to do otherwise. I see my being accepting of my situation, and my non-accept moments as a part of me.
I see my choosing not to in those moments of tough missing her as my greatest moments of truly loving myself and her. Loving someone your best and as true to the idea or goal of real love, giving the best definition of unconditional love as I know it to be, is what I've done. Really loving someone is a very efforful journey, situation seems hard at the times when I'm selfishly wanting to spend time with her, but the effort and stength I find it taking in my choice not to contact her is worth it. It was worth it to love her and offer my love, now I'm done offering to people that can not see or appreciate it and be grateful for what is in front of them. My feet socks smell, I think Dazmond has worn my socks again.. ack!
***In learning to look at myself with this Kia situation, I have been able to recognize the same patten with Zantheia, and Leah. I have made the choice to have a life without them in it and I'm happier already for it, every moment that I am able to choose other than contacting, I know my ability to truly have to capacity to love myself and another is getting stronger***
Peace and Blessings.
After 8.5 years, I have decided to call it quits with Kia, she doesn't deserve someone like myself as a partner. I am not hurting it surprised me as I used too, a lot. I have feelings still for her, I am able to notice my urges to cling and call or text and choose to do otherwise. I see my being accepting of my situation, and my non-accept moments as a part of me.
I see my choosing not to in those moments of tough missing her as my greatest moments of truly loving myself and her. Loving someone your best and as true to the idea or goal of real love, giving the best definition of unconditional love as I know it to be, is what I've done. Really loving someone is a very efforful journey, situation seems hard at the times when I'm selfishly wanting to spend time with her, but the effort and stength I find it taking in my choice not to contact her is worth it. It was worth it to love her and offer my love, now I'm done offering to people that can not see or appreciate it and be grateful for what is in front of them. My feet socks smell, I think Dazmond has worn my socks again.. ack!
***In learning to look at myself with this Kia situation, I have been able to recognize the same patten with Zantheia, and Leah. I have made the choice to have a life without them in it and I'm happier already for it, every moment that I am able to choose other than contacting, I know my ability to truly have to capacity to love myself and another is getting stronger***
Peace and Blessings.