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I am so unfocused lately, its bad. I mean but I really don't care. I don't even have the desire to be going to school anymore. I'm failing my film and video production class. This should make me realize I need to work harder but I just don't feel like it matters. I always try and get all A's every semester, and I think for once I am just going to be satisfied with good enough. Even if that means barely passing. This sounds like I am really bitter about life, but I am not. I'm the happiest I've been in a while. I love CSZ, I have amazing friends, and an amazing boyfriend, but for some reason I can just not for the life of me get back on track with school. I told my mom I wanted to go to cosmotology school instead of finishing college. I mean I have some desire, and I was just speaking out loud but she freaked. I know in the long run I want my degree, but man if I could just fast forward until then. Oh by the way, how can I be failing film? It's because that class is riddikulus! I hate actual production, I want to be an editor, what I learn in this class is gonna help me zilch. I have decided I need to watch more movies though. I ordered Netflix and I've decided it may be my next obsession. Yikes, even more distractions. Ahhhh!