mmmm donut
So this represents both a step forward and a step back.
This morning I was craving a chocolate donut. So while ordering my coffee... there was this split second decision "don't say it. don't say it."
oh fuck it, and I ordered a chocolate cruller. This is the step back.
So, what I did was... opened the bag and sniffed. Enjoying the smell. I said "ok, only one bite." Then I took one bite and threw the donut back in the bag, crumpled the bag up to seal in the enticing smell. Then I was thinking.. what if I chew the donut a long time? So I did, but it turns into a mushy blob in your mouth.
So what I did was hold the mushy blob on my tongue (careful not to move my tongue because it was grossing me out), but I could still taste the donut. Then when it got too gross to tolerate anymore, I spit it into the bag with the rest of the donut. Now, I know I got some calories in that, but far less than if I actually swallowed it. And ... it cured the craving.
This was the step forward.
I have issues.
This morning I was craving a chocolate donut. So while ordering my coffee... there was this split second decision "don't say it. don't say it."
oh fuck it, and I ordered a chocolate cruller. This is the step back.
So, what I did was... opened the bag and sniffed. Enjoying the smell. I said "ok, only one bite." Then I took one bite and threw the donut back in the bag, crumpled the bag up to seal in the enticing smell. Then I was thinking.. what if I chew the donut a long time? So I did, but it turns into a mushy blob in your mouth.
So what I did was hold the mushy blob on my tongue (careful not to move my tongue because it was grossing me out), but I could still taste the donut. Then when it got too gross to tolerate anymore, I spit it into the bag with the rest of the donut. Now, I know I got some calories in that, but far less than if I actually swallowed it. And ... it cured the craving.
This was the step forward.
I have issues.