how i feel
this is how i feel:
i thought all this was over with but i guess not
it upsets me that i'm excluded
it upsets me that you won't come up and tell me what is bothering you
it upsets me that you only call me for ice cream, at least that's how it feels
i will not be used
by anyone
it really upsets me that you haven't told me that it bothers you
either one of you
it upsets me that you never make an effort to see me
it upsets me that you don't understand or choose to understand my life
it upsets me that i would do anything for you guys but i don't feel it returned
all this stuff upsets me
and it upsets me that you never ask me about it
how many times have i asked what's wrong?
how many time have i said i know that this upsets you, and how many times have you never admitted that i was right?
how many times have i come over?
so i work, i know.... a lot.... and granted i didn't hang out as much before, but if you would ask me, i would admit my error.... and i will tell you why... and now you never give me the chance...
this is all i will say about it unless you bring it up
if you have no idea what i'm talking about, then this message is not for you
you can choose to ignore it, that's fine.... that doesn't bother me
you are still my some of my best friends
but i don't like unresolved issues
and that's all this feels like right now
i know that i upset you guys before, and i care about how i feel
do you care about how i feel?
do you understand?
anyway
that's my emotional babble
i'm sitting at the szymanskis until 10
it's 6
it's thursday
i'm already done work
i work in the day now mostly, which means i have nights off
by myself
without michael
i would love to hang out with people
if they want
if not, then i will play instruments and read
and that's my plan for the night
to work on the song kenny asked me to work on
and to read
and be online since it's been so long
and that's it
later
i thought all this was over with but i guess not
it upsets me that i'm excluded
it upsets me that you won't come up and tell me what is bothering you
it upsets me that you only call me for ice cream, at least that's how it feels
i will not be used
by anyone
it really upsets me that you haven't told me that it bothers you
either one of you
it upsets me that you never make an effort to see me
it upsets me that you don't understand or choose to understand my life
it upsets me that i would do anything for you guys but i don't feel it returned
all this stuff upsets me
and it upsets me that you never ask me about it
how many times have i asked what's wrong?
how many time have i said i know that this upsets you, and how many times have you never admitted that i was right?
how many times have i come over?
so i work, i know.... a lot.... and granted i didn't hang out as much before, but if you would ask me, i would admit my error.... and i will tell you why... and now you never give me the chance...
this is all i will say about it unless you bring it up
if you have no idea what i'm talking about, then this message is not for you
you can choose to ignore it, that's fine.... that doesn't bother me
you are still my some of my best friends
but i don't like unresolved issues
and that's all this feels like right now
i know that i upset you guys before, and i care about how i feel
do you care about how i feel?
do you understand?
anyway
that's my emotional babble
i'm sitting at the szymanskis until 10
it's 6
it's thursday
i'm already done work
i work in the day now mostly, which means i have nights off
by myself
without michael
i would love to hang out with people
if they want
if not, then i will play instruments and read
and that's my plan for the night
to work on the song kenny asked me to work on
and to read
and be online since it's been so long
and that's it
later