*random rambling*
Hmm I haven't posted much in the last few weeks again.....what can I say I'm boring and nothing much has been happening.
My bigbang is finally posted. Such a relief, god coding it was a bitch. I still don't know how happy I am with it. Its the longest story I've ever written, so from that point of view I'm over the moon that I got it finished without any real headaches. This story actually came pretty easy, the idea for the plot come within a few days of signing up, and I had an outline for it that week, that I actually more or less followed. Not something I usually do, because well I don't usually do outlines.
I think it could have been a lot better, I probably should have expanded parts and done more editing. I wanted more emotion in it, but it ended up as a fairly simply and straight forward sort of style of writing, which works just fine, but I was originally hoping to show more of the emotional turmoil Cas was going through. But stories tend to just take me along for the ride while I'm writing them. Still I was happy that in the end the more actiony bit of it seemd to flow reasonably well. I hate writing action, yet seem to have ended up doing action a lot in the last few fics I've done. I had trouble finding Bobby's voice to start with, which was a problem as much of it was written from his POV. But I'm glad I stuck with him as I liked writing Dean and Cas through him.
Anyway now that its done and dusted and the other fic exchanges I was doing are finished, though I'm still impatiently waiting for them to be posted, I'm actually sort of looking ofrward to just writing whatever comes to mind with no more deadlines. It was great pushing myself to write, as I actually haven't done much writing at all in the last 10 years. I used to pour all my angsty teenage issues out into poems and short stories, but didn't seem to have anything left to write about once I met my husband, apparently being stupidly in love and happy made my muse get fat and lazy and all it wanted to do was sit around drinking screwdrivers on a beach somewhere. But since I started doing uni study and all that acadameic writing, my creative side was dying to come out again, and Dean/Cas fics seem to be a great way to get everything flowing again. The more I have been writing the easier it is getting, so yeah over the moon to be writing again.
I seemed to have developed this habit of writing bits and pieces of a fic ompletely out of order though, and then going back and filling in the bits that are missing to join them all together. Not sure if its the best way to go about writing, but my mind seems to want to fill in the end first and then go back an figure out how they got there, usually by some means I don't see coming.
Anway I've got two fics on the go at the moment. A sequel to the last crack one I did (Surviving a Winchester hunt) and a moody yearing sort of one that may end up being very sad, I'm not sure yet. It is a canon divergence/au (whatever you call those) about Dean and Cas in the year between seasons 5 and 6. I have actually already written one ending, that is sort of bittersweetish but I'm not sure if I will keep it, I'm actually in the mood for doing a sadder ending, as I haven't done one of those yet. Only about 2,000 words into that one just yet, I think it may end up being fairly long. It may also lean more towards slash then anything I've written so far too. At least with all the yearning and whatnot...hmm I may be mean and keep them from actaully being "together" though, 'cause hey I said it was probably going to be sad....wait and see on that I guess. But there will be confessions in the Impala (acually lots of the impala), and man tears, and denial of those messy things called emotions...you know, fun stuffs...Actually this idea has me all excited so hopefully I will get some time to work on it in the next couple of weeks.
Yeah I know I'm mean, I make Dean cry at the thought of no "togetherness" with Cas...
If anyone ever has a plot bunny they want to flesh out and see get written, I'm more then willing to have a go at it. I'm not saying it will turn out how you expected but it could be fun writing something for or with someone on my flist...
Ok now I've been rambling on for ages about pretty much nothing, so yeah this is me, signing off...