Be Warned!!
I just received an email from an old childhood friend. It was a link to a music slideshow she'd made of pictures with us in the past. It's apparent that not many of those pictures have me in them as I was the one taking most of the pictures. But for some reason, seeing those old pictures with the corn friendship songs playing in the back ground just got me so FRUSTRATED!! I wanted to
Scream!
Yell!
Cry!
Do something besides watch it passively!
Of course I didn't. I'm such a masochist that way. And the thing about being a masochist is that you keep coming for more. There's still a few videos left to watch. The weird thing after the anger of being reminded of a past where I was part of a large group or family was that I felt so stupid for some of the things I tried to do. Then the nostalgia hit with the softer music to play with it. Now I just feel totally drained.
Maybe the past should stay in the past. It seems I have trouble keeping the door shut tight since the memories slip in every once in awhile. It's hard to move away from a place where you actually did belong.
Scream!
Yell!
Cry!
Do something besides watch it passively!
Of course I didn't. I'm such a masochist that way. And the thing about being a masochist is that you keep coming for more. There's still a few videos left to watch. The weird thing after the anger of being reminded of a past where I was part of a large group or family was that I felt so stupid for some of the things I tried to do. Then the nostalgia hit with the softer music to play with it. Now I just feel totally drained.
Maybe the past should stay in the past. It seems I have trouble keeping the door shut tight since the memories slip in every once in awhile. It's hard to move away from a place where you actually did belong.