maturity
Today I went for an hour without wearing my glasses. I can see, although not extremely well, but it turned into an experiment. Does not wearing glasses change how I act? I think it did.
I've always been (for the most part) a very self-conscious person, and I feel like I can hide behind my glasses. It's like having my own personal viewing window where I can see out but I don't think about people being able to see in. So, removing the glasses made me feel more open, more aware and available to my surrounding environment. I really envy my friend Jessie because the person she is on the outside is a direct reflection of who she is on the inside, and I secretly aspire to be someone who:
And I guess you could say it's analogous to a naturopathic remedy, which strives to 'heal the person, not the symptoms'. Symptoms of a bacterial infection, for example, are treated with antibiotics that make us feel better, and they make us forget about or clear up whatever's bothering us. But, the long-term effect of a dependency on drugs like that doesn't compare to the immunity your body builds up for it's own resistance. Alternative remedies stimulate our own bodies to fight for us, instead of introducing medication foreign to our bodies. I'm not saying I don't take Claritin or use drugs for that purpose, but my awareness of the benefits of overcoming the ailment on my own makes me feel strong. For example, when I get a headache, I've realized that it's because I'm doing something wrong: stress, not drinking enough water, or I haven't done anything fun. So I usually start with the last one, and I do something that makes me happy, and it generally gets my mind off of thinking about my headache. Lately I've been playing the piano, and that works wonderfully.
In any case, I want to feel a little better about myself, and in turn, I think that will help me make better decisions when it comes to the three bullet points I made earlier. I think that a lot of the way I act towards other people is an insecurity in myself that I need to address. Taking off my glasses helped me to feel like I was taking that step to opening up--I'm aware that I look a little ridiculous without them, considering they are more-or-less part of my identity by now. And plus, that's just a physical expression of what I want to do mentally, so I'm not necessarily going to get contacts, even though I'd consider it. If only I could be more upfront with people immediately, more assertive, and less judgmental, I may be on the right track. I mean, I'm not going to go out tomorrow and purposely act differently just to reach these goals, but just being able to say this 'out loud' tells me (and you) that I'd like to grow.
I've always been (for the most part) a very self-conscious person, and I feel like I can hide behind my glasses. It's like having my own personal viewing window where I can see out but I don't think about people being able to see in. So, removing the glasses made me feel more open, more aware and available to my surrounding environment. I really envy my friend Jessie because the person she is on the outside is a direct reflection of who she is on the inside, and I secretly aspire to be someone who:
- cares about other people's feelings
- shares his thoughts openly
- shows love by 'doing' vs. 'saying'
And I guess you could say it's analogous to a naturopathic remedy, which strives to 'heal the person, not the symptoms'. Symptoms of a bacterial infection, for example, are treated with antibiotics that make us feel better, and they make us forget about or clear up whatever's bothering us. But, the long-term effect of a dependency on drugs like that doesn't compare to the immunity your body builds up for it's own resistance. Alternative remedies stimulate our own bodies to fight for us, instead of introducing medication foreign to our bodies. I'm not saying I don't take Claritin or use drugs for that purpose, but my awareness of the benefits of overcoming the ailment on my own makes me feel strong. For example, when I get a headache, I've realized that it's because I'm doing something wrong: stress, not drinking enough water, or I haven't done anything fun. So I usually start with the last one, and I do something that makes me happy, and it generally gets my mind off of thinking about my headache. Lately I've been playing the piano, and that works wonderfully.
In any case, I want to feel a little better about myself, and in turn, I think that will help me make better decisions when it comes to the three bullet points I made earlier. I think that a lot of the way I act towards other people is an insecurity in myself that I need to address. Taking off my glasses helped me to feel like I was taking that step to opening up--I'm aware that I look a little ridiculous without them, considering they are more-or-less part of my identity by now. And plus, that's just a physical expression of what I want to do mentally, so I'm not necessarily going to get contacts, even though I'd consider it. If only I could be more upfront with people immediately, more assertive, and less judgmental, I may be on the right track. I mean, I'm not going to go out tomorrow and purposely act differently just to reach these goals, but just being able to say this 'out loud' tells me (and you) that I'd like to grow.