wooo assult on middle earth!!!

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my arm went numb yesterday. not just like oh half of my arm is numb because of the way i slept, i mean i was washing my hair in the shower and from my shoulder down went completely numb. it was the second scariest thing that's happned to me. i know some of you are saying "why's that scary to you?" and i will answer that; there's something wrong with me and i dunno what and doctors refuse to see me because i dont have insurance. i can't bend my head without some feeling going down into my leg and my hand. i can't walk withotu my leg feeling like it's going numb and will eventually give out on me. and now my hand is fucked. but this isn't like a few months ago when my ahnd went all weird. this is worse because that went away. unfortunately it's not the same thing because that i could live with, this shit about it going numb for no god damned reason is horrible. i'm paranoid to take a shower now and i dont want to go to sleep. i'm so fucking scared that whatever is wrong with me is irriversable or that it's going to get worse before i can see a doctor. well i know it's getting worse actually or maybe better, i'm not sure. it's not as bad in my leg as it was, like behind my kneecap hurts and the side of my thigh tingles, but now it's worse in my hand. a doctor i saw before said it was my sciatic nerve but woudl that affect my hand? maybe i have a pinched nerve in my back, i dunno. i can't trust doctors anymore. i have been misdiagnosed all the way around.

but on a happier note, sarah ran into danny, so he's stalking her now instead of me and i got Gag to level 51 today. XD