i jump out of the game by being the referee
i always have the feeling that im not really living. so many times i keep waiting for life start but i feel like it cant for another year. why must everything fun be banned until we're 21? i feel like im clawing at the door waiting for excitement to show up. my life is going quickly but i still feel that im just passing time. i want to experience life but thats impossible at this age and without money. oh well. maybe it will come junior year when i go to england. im dying here. I NEED SOMETHING TO KEEP ME GOING! its the same old. maybe going on vacation will give me some perspective and some relaxation that is desperately needed. anyway goodbye for now.