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Seeing aarons picture on myspace just freaked me out. Hes the only guy i can say that i truly ever for sure loved. Whether it was puppy love or not, it was love. And now hes older, and he doesn't seem much older like he did when i was fourteen. Six years later. Damn, technically like five. In two more days it would be the anniversary of me losing my virginity to him. Seeing that he has a girlfriend of two years blows my mind with jealousy. I don't know why. And shes not even pretty, shes short and fat. Like four foot eleven, and hes skinny at six foot two. I mean come on. I've had so many ideas run through my head, if he would only sign onto myspace and check his mail. Okay ill give it a month, before i think of something else. I mean, ive waited five years, whats a month gonna hurt?
What do i think is gonna happen, all our old feelings will come rushing back to us? Hell leave his troll of a girlfriend for an old flame that lives in Georgia? REally though, My looks are banging beyond belief compared to his g/f. A part of me wants to talk to him to piss my mom off. Another part wants to catch up on old times, another part wants to take him away from his g/f just to say i did, and mostly apart of me wants to get back whatever piece of my heart he took with him when i was forced to break up with him, just so i can fix the rest of me and how ive dealt with relationships.
I mean, i know we wouldn't work now. We are way too different. When i was 14 i knew nothing, and was basing my thoughts on what his were. Whose to say he wouldn't be one of those guys i absolutely hate now. I doubt it though. I imagine him to be just like the type of guy i like. I dunno. I hope ill find out.
What do i think is gonna happen, all our old feelings will come rushing back to us? Hell leave his troll of a girlfriend for an old flame that lives in Georgia? REally though, My looks are banging beyond belief compared to his g/f. A part of me wants to talk to him to piss my mom off. Another part wants to catch up on old times, another part wants to take him away from his g/f just to say i did, and mostly apart of me wants to get back whatever piece of my heart he took with him when i was forced to break up with him, just so i can fix the rest of me and how ive dealt with relationships.
I mean, i know we wouldn't work now. We are way too different. When i was 14 i knew nothing, and was basing my thoughts on what his were. Whose to say he wouldn't be one of those guys i absolutely hate now. I doubt it though. I imagine him to be just like the type of guy i like. I dunno. I hope ill find out.