I need your advice...on something....

[__oni_no_kaze__]

There's recently been a major bombshell dropped on me, and knowing some of the things this group's involved with I couldn't think of anywhere better to go to get some advice on the matter.

There's a girl, whom I love and care about more than anyone. She's almost my raison d'etre. She's currently in the states while I'm stationed out here in Sasebo, Japan (Navy boy). She's just told me that she intends to become a boy. The whole transgendered operation. And apparently I'm the last to know about it. She didn't want to tell me, but why she wouldn't say.

I'm feeling really conflicted and confused inside right now. I don't know what to think, what to do, how to take or handle any of this. I'm in total and complete chaos inside right now. It doesn't help that I'm on the other side of the world from this girl, either, and I've already got enough stress coming from being in the military. I feel like I'm on the verge of burning out, breaking down, or just going numb.

Please, guys...give me some advice. What should I do? What do I say? I know I should probably be supportive...but after all the heartache I've been through before this is like the final nail in the coffin. Like I said, conflicted.