Nov 09, 2006 09:13
I'm not a writer!!! Why am I in a class where I'm supposed to be one??
My writing class is driving me maddddd. I can't revise. I can't even write! I don't have interesting ideas, so I collect a bunch of boring, semi-relevant ones and put them down on paper. I put them together in a way that makes sense to me, but apparently that way is neither cohesive nor comprehensible. I essentially start over, omitting about half of my topics, rearranging the entire thing, then try to fill in the gaps with explanations and transitions.
And we peer review and this girl in my class tells me all the same things my professor told me one draft ago.
I changed it!!
But it still has all the same problems??
I have a lot of trouble believing draft 4 will be any different... I don't know any other way to improve this.
I spend soooo much time working on this/ thinking about it/ trying to write. I wish I could get graded on effort. But no, it's about the finished product.
Yes, I'm learning a lot, but apparently not fast enough. Last paper I spent a lot less energy on, ended up with a B-/C+. That's basically superdiscouraging.
Plus I really never had any confidence in my writing to begin with, except maybe some kind of blind confidence. Now Professor Tollefson has effectively squashed that.
So... where do I find motivation to do this? at 8 am...?