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i was right. rough month rough month. grandma is not doing well. at all. i can't handle anything anymore heh. came home thursday from the invitational and my dad told us she's going to die in a matter of days. i can't cry anymore it's all weird to me. it's horrible. everything's up in the air...she started to eat for my parents yesterday...don't worry i'm not going to get my hopes up. this is what happened with sherber...and we know how that turned out. regions was fantabulous. i don't want it to be over. our guest conductor was amazing...strict and amazing. playing that concert was something i never wanted to end. all state auditions are saturday. i wasn't going to go. i'm going. ron helped a bunch. regions is probably the reason i'm okay right now. i need to make states so i can have that feeling again. none of you would understand. i miss ron and katie already haha. tons-o-fun. i hope we all make states together...well ron's in...but me and kaity. ahhhhh. she's too good i don't see how she wouldn't. we're the only morons who wear white shirts...gotta stick together. oh and i grabbed a small chinese woman's head after the wind ensemble performance. most awkward moment of my life right there. american idol starts tonight. i'm exhausted. i'm scared. i'm antsy. i'm upset. oi.