I really need school to start again

Feb 20, 2009 10:09

And not because T has been difficult or anything.  On the contrary, aside from him having a cold/cough this week, he's been exceptionally good and I've enjoyed my time with him.  Even if it has been on the boring side because he's been sick/it's been snowing/and I've been too tired.  No, the reason I really need school to start again is so I can go back to writing during the day.  This staying up until 1 a.m. or so because I really can't make myself stop until I've finished my scene is going to be the death of me.  I feel like a zombie more and more with each day.  Every night I tell myself I'll stop and go to bed by 10:30 or 11 but each night I find myself so sucked into what I'm writing that I can't stop.  And I keep thinking about how if I just finish this scene I'll be that much closer to the end of the book.  And I am so close, you guys.  So close.  I'm at that point where I don't know which is greater:  my excitement to reach the end so I can go back and reread my masterpiece because I'm in  the "this is the best book in the world!" stage or my panic that I'll never get the remaining scenes squeezed into my remaining word count because I refuse to go above 120K.  I also have panic that I'll forget something important in my rush to reach the end and I'll never remember it again and there'll be this big gaping hole in my book that everyone else will see but I won't and oh my gosh, once I finish and complete my revisions other people will be reading this and... and... Okay, time to breathe.  I really am having fun though.  It's exciting to see everything fall into place like it is and I feel very accomplished because I've been on a roll for so long.  But man, do I need sleep.  I need my daytime writing back.

getting antsy, the writing life

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