i don't really even believe in god but...

[fancifuldecrees]

Today we played God.
And there was nothing I wouldn't have given to turn a blind eye to our destruction.
Except I knew I had to be there for him, as he always was for me.

But I could scarecely bring myself to look at him as
I numbly and repeatedly ran my hand over his back
until his heart stopped
he daintily fell
and, knowing that this was the last time I would ever see him in any place
excepting my memories

I could not tear my eyes away.