why do i keep letting myself get hurt?? :'-(
k i need to vent reaaaaaaaaaally badly. and if ANYONE is offended by me posting this on LJ, too bad. its not my fault that u choose to read this. i need to vent right now...
ugh... i hate my life... i keep letting myself get hurt over and over and over. i just got blown off AGAIN, by someone who led me to believe that she wuz different. look, if you dont want me coming or theres a problem or something, FUCKING CALL ME!!! im sick of everyone blowing me off and then telling me a few days later when I BRING IT UP that something happened or something came up or their mom said now or wutever the fuck it is. everyone thats a good friend of mine or wutever has my cell phone number. fucking use it!!! u know, fuck it. and fuck everyone. i wuz really considering staying in california for cal arts cuz i thought ppl were starting to treat me a bit better and that its not so bad here. i guess i wuz WAAAAY wrong. dont fuck with me and my emotions if all u want is to hook up with someone. if u like me and i feel the same, then talk to me, take advantage of wut u have. ask my best friend sara, a guy like me duz not come around very often. and if you ppl are too scared about getting hurt and arent ready to take ur chances with me, then dont get started with me, and dont lead me on. and especially dont tell me "ya come over tomorrow!!" and then completely avoid the subject the next day when im supposed to come over. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!