Mid-week crash and buzz
Writing on impulse. A wave of contradictions crashing into my mind. Seeing the urgency to complete tasks at hand, but detouring to mediums that provide temporary escape because it is necessary. Future in one hand and present in the other. Playing brain games with the hope that motivation to do work will be realized. Feeling the need to not care about school, but then again.. Not having any particular topics to talk about, but a flurry of random events filling up in my head, these events requiring no explanation, like observations sans analysis. Conversing with close friends about these random things, and taking joy in having experienced such things, and attempting to bring a bit of laughter and smiles around. Listening to Queen and reflecting on the loss of a great legend who enthralled audiences at live concerts. Contemplating on coins and notes made of plastic in electronic form, visible yet untouchable. Reading at academic articles and thinking that I understand what is written, but struggling to paraphrase it in a way that is understandable. Wishing that more can be done as an individual, yet trapped in the process of attaining social mobility. Looking at cats, dogs, bearded dragons and imagining you can own them all, gushing at their astounding cuteness but still happy with one cat.
A clash between practicality and idealistic notions.