drunk driving, some form of soft suicide, sitting in silence and staring at ceilings, peeling the paint off of things to confide)
because, at what point do you just say "yes, i have gone completely crazy"? laying in bed all day listening to the who. go to the kitchen to get water, dancing barefoot on the record player on repeat for an hour and i forgot to actually drink any water. thinking about particle physics makes me happy and i'm worried i will forget i want to be a librarian and cover my walls in equations about gravity because physicists don't start their book chapters with anecdotes about violent rapes and say "now let us attend to the human condition". (natural) science is for those bastards who are tired of interpersonal relations.
possibly this is all the result of a recent media overload. sensory what's-the-opposite-of-deprivation. or like when astronauts (we're not back on the astronauts again, are we?) get off the spaceship and aren't being pumped with vitamin c to exploding anymore. is scurvy imminent? is there such a thing as reverse scurvy? here is what i've been doing lately:
cinematography.
the royal tennenbaums i have finally seen most of this since we got a vcr and a television that doesn't really work and i can watch alison's videotapes. the last two times we tried to watch it, i fell asleep. not because i was bored, but because i was tired. but i have been watching it in increments lately, and i think it's really good and i like the music and the little placards at the beginning of each scene. the colors as well. it's all very lovely.
lord of the rings i still haven't seen the third part of the trilogy, but i definitely enjoyed the first two parts much much more than i did the first time i watched them. also, because i am not as much of a nerd as j, i can't remember the books in as great detail, so if there are any inconsistencies i don't really notice them. i do, however, recall that faramir wasn't such an ass in the books. i'm pretty sure i liked him the best. but then, i have always had a weakness for second sons.
hot fuzz zomg, seriously the best movie i have seen in a long time. i can't even get over how good this is. this? is how you do intertextuality! and don't you forget it.
1408 worst piece of crap i have seen recently. how the fuck did everyone else enjoy it so hard? it wasn't scary, it just relied on cheap scare tactics like loud noises every so often, and if i hear one more person say the word "psychological" i swear i am going to break out the molotov cocktails. stephen king, you're a hack. the plot was ripped off from no exit and several episodes of star trek, and the "surprise twist"? was just the end of event horizon, a film which scared me shitless when i was thirteen and my best friend and my boyfriend left me alone in the theater but, being no longer thirteen, fails to really do much for me. the only part i liked, and i have to admit i LOVED it, was when he put the key in the door and it was shot through the keyhole and you could see everything turning and all that. nice. otherwise, utter tripe.
dirty dancing swayzefest '07 part one. i know irony is the shackles of youth. but i can't help it that i went to a patrick swayze marathon. surprisingly, i actually enjoyed this. i can't remember ever liking this movie before, though i do tend to enjoy its many and various spoofs. most of us agreed, however, that it was pretty good. of course it was 80stastic, but patrick swayze was actually fairly attractive somehow, and we counted all the euphemisms for "pregnant" they used. general favorite: "in trouble".
point break swayzefest '07 part two. followed by ghost, roadhouse, and red dawn, none of which i hung around to see because i had work in the morning. point break, however, was all it promised and more. by which i mean it was pretty gay. and i was practically on the floor in stitches when gary busey insinuated that keanu reeves would have trouble passing as a surfer to infiltrate their community. um. really? because from where i was sitting, i couldn't tell the difference.
harry potter and the order of the phoenix DO. NOT. WANT. i tried to avoid saying anything unkind about this in the car because, once again, all my friends managed to like it and the last time i said anything even remotely honest about an awful movie (see: 1408 above...) it made them really angry. but anyone who tries to cram eight billion pages into two hours is really asking for it in my opinion. guys, i have said it before, just make two movies. it'll help, really. that way, you won't have to cut out all the important bits of the plot in order to make a tacky blockbuster with no buildup and no real payoff. some things i hated that they cut and/or changed:
1) luna lovegood: "who are you?" neville longbottom: "i'm nobody" ginny weasley: "you're not nobody, you're neville longbottom". that's possibly my favorite ginny moment in THE ENTIRE SERIES. way to cut that out, idiots. i guess it's not really important but i really liked it because you know what? ginny's a nice kid. and if she and harry are gonna do it, that should be why. because she's nice.
2) wtf why have there been no house elves in the last two movies? why has there been no s.p.e.w.? none of my friends agree with me that hermione is kind of a dick when it comes to overenthusiastic teenage activism, but i think that's really the point, isn't it? that we're all kind of idiots when we're kids, but then we grow up. they think she's doing something great, you know, trying to free the slaves and all. i think it's awful. of course i don't support slavery. obviously. but i also don't support going into a community you aren't a part of and actually know nothing about and pretending that you understand everything and forcing your ideals on the people there and telling them that their lives are wrong. it's fine to say "you know, not everyone in the world lives like this" it's not fine to say "i know nothing of your culture because i have known about you for all of two years and haven't actually listened to a single thing you've said to me (when i bothered to speak to you at all and didn't just assume you were miserable and mistreated) but i clearly know what's best for you". that said, WTF MATE, why didn't kreacher directly cause sirius's death?
3) and speaking of that death scene: in the movie he really clearly got hit by an ak and that's why he fell into the arch. and the curtain didn't really look like a curtain. and he just sort of faded away into it. NEXT!
4) the department of mysteries was slashed to ribbons. no one seemed to get injured at all, hermione didn't almost die, ron didn't go crazy from the flying brains, and ginny and neville didn't have anything broken. there was no looking for the right door in the spinny room, and they didn't get badges that proclaimed they were on a rescue mission. i think they really missed out by not showing that little piece of the ministry's bureaucracy. that was amazing.
5)but most of all, they took out the two-way mirrors. the one way harry could have contacted sirius and didn't use it and set the whole ending in motion. and when he told snape that they had sirius, it didn't have the same impact because, again, there was no buildup of harry thinking everyone he could trust was gone and all the order members were away and then realizing that yes, there WAS an order member there even though they hated each other and how could he be so dumb? the way they did it, it was just harry and them thinking quickly and happening to be outgunned by adults with decades of evil behind them instead of a bunch of dumb kids rushing in without really thinking things through and nearly getting themselves killed and getting other people killed in the process.
6) there was no marietta edgecomb. no "snitch" written across her face. come on! that was so badass and, again, i think revealed an essential part of hermione's nature. it was just cho telling on them (...what?) and of course it wasn't her fault because she was drugged. o......kay.
also! when harry said he wanted to be A-L-O-N-E(!) was i the only one thinking "the boy with the thorn in his side! behind the hatred there lies a plundering desire for looooooove"? this probably jumped immediately to mind because i have been singing this song for daaaaaays and you'll find out why a little later. but also, i tend to mix harry potter and the smiths anyway. like in the third movie, when he was up in the clock tower in his little black hoodie i said "i'm harry potter! i wear black on the outside because black is how i feel on the inside!!" so. who knows?
some music.
SCISSOR SISTERS why yes! i do get musical recommendations from doctor who! they're okay. not great. that one song's nice. i've been meaning to listen to them for YEARS literally but never actually got around to it. finally gave them a listen and eh. they're not bad. i do like trashy glam rock and all, but they bore me after a while.
NOISETTES okay, them i like! i think i read about them in a magazine somewhere and i really like their rock&roll. also, the video for the song "sister rosetta" is kind of amazing.
ANNIE LENNOX yes, again. every so often i listen to her and then wonder why i haven't been listening to her all my life. which...maybe i kind of have? but not consecutively. i have made alison love her as well when it was revealed that she's actually a drag queen. am i kidding? i'll never tell.
TROUBLED HUBBLE a band from around my neck of the woods who i discovered around 2002? they had a song about canoes. it was glorious. now i find they actually wrote more than three songs and they are all a bit magnificent and "i'm pretty sure i can see molecules" may in fact be one of my favorite songs ever written.
PLACEBO more trashy glam rock i listen to hardcore every couple of years. i just get in the mood to hear the song "nancy boy" and then i find out they have a new album out. this has happened at least twice. meds is pretty good, but it's no sleeping with ghosts.
and finally, television, all compliments of our good friend the bbc.
please advise, the bbc is completely insane and i love them for it! gayest. stations. evar.
doctor who OH GOD I LOVE DOCTOR WHO. for pure hilarity, there's nothing that can match the 1970s. and what is this i keep hearing about condom monsters? oh, tom baker, i'm a little in love with you. just like everybody else.
and one of the things which was making me really sad? jack, as the face of boe, being dead (forrealthistime)? it occurs to me that he's probably not. i mean okay. the first time we meet him. the end of the world. he didn't die because no one died. because tragedy was averted at the very last second and it was like oh hey close call but we all made it haha! so we didn't get to see. then the second time. the hospital on new earth. we all thought he was dying. the doctor thought he was dying. and then all of a sudden he was all "well, maybe i won't die now, but next time i totally will and then i'll tell you secrets, yeah?" and HE DIDN'T DIE. but don't you think it would have been kind of suspicious if he hadn't-died twice? much safer to have a close call once and avoid the whole issue. and then. the third time. we see him die, so we assume he did. and then we find out it's jack and we're all that much sadder. but. i forgot. we've seen jack die. oh, loads of times! sometimes even for an extended period of time. i'm talking about torchwood here, and in that finale, jack died for three days. it was hopelessly messianic but the point is we saw the face of boe die. martha and the doctor saw the face of boe die. we all think they hung around and he's dead dead dead but dead doesn't mean much when it's jack, apparently. he can be dead for a while and then not so much. so yes. he could still be out there somewhere. he could go meet himself. it's all fine, the doctor's still got friends and the end of the freaking universe. facts are facts are facts.
the sarah jane adventures I REALLY LIKE THIS SHOW! i'll admit it! it's not great television but what it is is a great children's show. all the elements are there and they come together really nicely. i don't know what it is about children's television that makes it different from the regular stuff, whether it's the storytelling style, the acting style, or the REALLY BAD, NOT SCARY MONSTERS that are actually pretty camp, but it's incredibly distinctive and i am a huge fan! invasion of the bane (the only available episode, thus far) is what i assume you'd get if power rangers and the secret world of alex mack had an unholy baby. elisabeth sladen is marvelous of course and i love that she's a mad, childless old bat who goes around harriet-the-spying it up. i can't decide if the end was really queer or really heteronormative, but meh. i'm also not sure how i feel about all the bits of the doctor who franchise conspiring to make us all watch torchwood. a tip, guys? just make it better. there's your viewer base. although, i did feel particularly clever when i noticed that the alien she was talking to was the same one (maybe not THE SAME ONE, but same species i guess) as in greeks bearing gifts. then i wondered what else was going on there. and then i thought "they wouldn't put lesbians on a kid's show!" and then i remembered "oh, right, in america they change them to cousins. but this is the bbc! there's sodomy everywhere!" and then i giggled to myself because it would make an odd sort of sense if sarah jane smith was gay. huh.
life on mars i really don't know what to think of this one and i guess that means it's good. first off, i love 70s cop shows. and that's basically what this is only with better acting because it ISN'T the 70s anymore and we can all say a rosary for that. i'm kidding. i don't actually recall the 70s, but from what i gather from my mother, let's thank the lord and move on. plus, i have seen enough television from that era to begin to put together a comprehensive picture. so! what we have here is a kind of meta-show. it's like a 70s cop show about 70s cop shows. it definitely relies pretty heavily on all the clichés you sort of half remember and oscillates between begging to be taken seriously and staunchly avoiding being taken seriously in any way, all though an odd, disconnected, self-referencing dream filter. it's kind of brilliant. okay, i've decided i freaking love it. i even love the odd addition of nelson the magical negro which really bothered me at first, but i'm kind of feeling like it's supposed to be from the 70s. of course they would have this character in that sort of show so of course they've got to have him now. i like how the colors are so different between 1973 and 2006. it's sort of cheap, but what can i say? the 1973 color filter makes everything gorgeous. that color scheme is sort of the thing of my fantasies and i wish my life really looked like that. plus? oh shit i'd love to look like john simm in the 70s. why don't i dress like that? right. because it's hard to find a vegan coat that looks like that. and without the coat? nothing. huh. episode two (first series) was kind of outstanding for reasons i can't really describe. i also really really liked the last few. the camberwick green spoof was hilarious ("is it gene hunt? is he kicking in a nonce?" ha!) but i think maybe i hated the very last episode, i can't tell. though i did like the lead up to it a lot. i liked that the very last episode paralleled the very first one (i'm talking exact dialogue and all). i'm trying to be really careful with the spoilers here but i think you get the idea.
blackpool i'll get this out of the way just so there's no confusion. i love you, david tennant! it's true. honestly, he's so attractive to me, and he's really effing frightening in this series as well. peter carlisle is an utter bastard and he scares me. but the nice thing is they're all sort of bastards so you don't know who to root for. here is what i root for: david tennant's oral fixation. also, i have just been watching
this scene over and over and over because it it probably the most magnificent thing i have ever seen and it's got the smiths and how is that ever gonna be wrong? i think this is my favorite dance scene in the series, and the lead-in (which you don't see in this clip) is really sad because danny really liked that guy and the whole time he was just being set up. which is kind of a microcosm of the whole depressing series. you can like people, sure, but in the end you're probably just being used for something.
hey! just like my life!